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Monday, December 29, 2008

Woweee

Woww...wow.....it's been a long time since ive posted & I feel neglectful. A lot of things have changed. Xmas & Yule have come & gone & another new year is almost here. I'll be 38 in just a few months. Yuck. Somehow Im not too excited. LOL
My daughtwers will turn 14 & 9 this year as well. Kayla's bday is just weeks away.
Still unemployed, so thats makig things tough. I have an iterview tomorrow morning though, so hoping for the best of luck there. Abigail has already bestowed her good luck charm upon me. it worked last time!
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Xmas went well for the girls, they made out like thieves, as usual, but this year was very different. If not for the benefactors that helped us out, there would have been nothing. Between the CL ad & KTUL spotlighting us, things worked out well. I dont know where wed be without the help. Likely homeless.
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Weather has been very weird here. 20's one night, 60's the next day. Just weird. I wish itd pick a temp & hang out with it awhile, preferably in the cooler temps too, kill off some of the bug population. We had a horrendous dealing with fleas & ticks this past year. poor cats. Hopefully we have gotten the worst of it under control.
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REALLY hoping for thi s job I interview for tomorrow. Its w/ Mortgage Clearing. Back to the field I was working in. I honestly dont care what Ill be doing anymore, as long as im working & getting paid. Unemployment is ok but I want a real job with a real paycheck. Sick of being behind the 8 ball & feeling unproductive.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

omg

My god, this is sooo in need of an update. Wow. a lot has changed. I've been laid off twice in the space of 3 months. I have a new nephew, Alexander Dale, pix soon......, My sister & 2 of her kidlets moved back to town fleeing hurricane Ike, she lived with us awhile, Im stilllllll unemployed. Dont like how the job market looks out there folks. its gonna be a rough ride, methinks. Xmas season is upon us, & me with no job. Sux.
Wow, looking on all thats happened, Im amazed I still have hair left!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

random stuff

Sooo sleepy today, almost fell asleep in the bathroom. Now that's bad.lol Stayed up too late last night. Me & Jeff had a project.
We built me a new desk, the one I had was falling apart & it just want't working. It sounds redneck as hell, but its quite practical. 8 crates, fastened together, 4 on each side, creating 8 storage cubbies, & MDF across the top. Eventually I'll put laminate countertop on it & spray paint the crates the same color & attach it to the top with large bolts.
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Managed to hurt my shoulder again, the rotator cuff thingy, Id hurt it awhile back & reinjured it I guess. DId a lot of yard work, weedeating, mowing, weeding by hand & cleaning up the front quite a bit. Also got the pool started draining, moved some crap around in the back yard & helped jeff load the now broken big screen tv into the truck-which is now being serviced-pray for it.lol
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work is.............bleh, I sooo dont want to be here. JUst dont see things getting much better.
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Jeff is going to rebuild my machine, make it a little faster. YAY
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Abigail has decided she wants to play the violin. WHile I love the idea of one of my children becoming a musical virtusos, I also know my child & she hates doing any kind of work.lol This is going to be a challenge, I hope she enjoys it at least, that will make the whole year go smoother. I cant wait to see her progress & hear her play . Of course, the screeching that comes with learning, hmmmm, may get some earplugs.
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saturday is a full moon, im going to make a point to be outside that night, rain or not, IM getting back to what I need to do.....
I've been experiencing spiritual burnout & it occurred to me why. several reasons really, 1- Im not making myself get out there 2- IM allowing other things to get in the way of doing it & not making it a priority. 3-Im not supposed to be publicly 'out there'. IM just not very comfortable around groups of people, with the exception of Glorias groups. I feel at ease at those, used to feel that way about esbat, of course, im so out of that now, itd be hard to get back to it.We'll see. for now, Im gonna make it a point to do 'something' each day, if only for 5 minutes. & to mark the special days as they should be, by myself, may involve the girls as time goes on & im more into it again.
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about to embark on the 2nd half of the 'carpet sucks' project.
time to get rid of all the staples & paint the floor. going to go with a deep brown color, hope it looks as good as it sounds in my head.
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Monday, August 11, 2008

Well.......

I sincerely try to keep this blog upbeat but sometimes I don't write because my mood is down. Well, maybe that's a mistake. I'm quite upset today, maybe I shouldn't be but it bothers me.
the girls @ work were talking about some other person, a former coworker, referring to her weight, she short & heavy, which makes her seem twice as big as she is. They were talking about how bad it is, which is true, health wise, then it went to cracks about how she looked. Hmm, some friends. Mind you, one of the friends is overweight herself. She's taller than the aforementioned lady & I, but nevertheless, at least 80 or so overweight. I myself am about the same, but being short, it looks worse on me than on her. & oh yeah, she had a month or 2 where she did weight watchers & lost about 20-25 lbs. Well, good for her.....
Anyhow, the cracks went on for a moment & I sat here, conscious they could also refer to me. I said aloud " Thanks _____". & she said "Well its true. You are what you are"
Ummm, yeah, thanks for the reminder that IM fucking fat. I'd almost forgotten you know. What would I have done without your reminders. AS IF I could ever forget.
Am I over sensitive?
Doesn't help that I'm just getting back into dieting & going back to the gym & working out. FUck, I'm TRYING.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Tokyo in Tulsa

SO I said I was tokyo'd out. I was wrong. We went back on Sunday for the final day of the convention. I actually had a pretty good time. Not only did Kayla & I go, Abi went, & Kayla's BFF Valerie went too, & Zane, my stepson showed up as well. Tried to get some cash to buy Abi some of her beloved Pocky, but the ATM was down, so we trekked to 5th & Main to the bank to get cash. BLEH, it was over 100 .
WHEn we got back, Zane had arrived, so we trekked around awhile, then the kids all started lining up & did whats called a 'caramel dance' line. They were having a blast, up the escalator, down the hall, zigging in & out of room, down stairs, out the building, around the corner, down more stairs, in the main doors, up the escalator again, zigging thru more room, back down the escalator & up again, round & round it went. I captured a little video on my phone but the quality blows. :(
Im hoping something else shows up on youtube. If anyone else has photos or videos, shout out to me.
All in all, there was a great time had by all. The con staff, directors, vendors, hotel staff & everyone involved were great! I am actually looking forward to the next one (next time Ill wear better shoes to walk in!)

Saturday, August 2, 2008

tokyo'd out

I have spent most of today & half of last night at Tokyo in Tulsa, an anime convention. Why am I here?
My 13 yo daughter is in love with anime. She eats, sleeps & breathes it. Shes also volunteering to get in for free. Ive sat in on some things with her, but Ive spent most my time here online, on my laptop, watching the people walk by. Majority of the corwd is in full costume, or in partial costume. All kinds & colors of hair, fake weapons, kimonoos, weird robes,short dresses, striped tights & socks, its unreal. Some are just downright scary.
But shes having a blast & that what I care about.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

random rants and ramblings, or workblogging part 92,387,536,776,598

It's been a jumbled up crazy kind of time here in okiemom land.
so last week I went to the courthouse, as I generally do 2x a week for my job, dropping off docs to be recorded & picking up some, etc. I clipped my keys on a carbiner clip I have on my bag. Walk thru the parking lot, thru the courtyard, halfway across the courthouse, treasurers office, clerks office, 2 elevators & back across & down to the garage again. No keys.....
Shit....
I trace my steps over & over, looking under every car I may have passed, the stairs, check in all the surrounding buildings front desks in case they were turned in, had the sheriffs deputy even feeling bad for me. I was stuck.
Finally, after about an hour or more of this, I broke down & called Jeff, who seemed quite annoyed, he fired up the mammoth behemoth & trekked downtown, after borrowing 10. to put in the tank of the beast & came to my rescue. He unlocked the door w/ his key & lo & behold, guess what sat on the front passenger seat?
(insert stupid moment here)
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We have got till Nov to decide to either buy the house we're in (not) or move. We choose to move. We have found the perfect home, it's a mobile home, now to find somewhere to put the damn thing.
4 bedrooms, an office for Jeff, 2 living areas, a HUGE kitchen & pantry, big utility rooms, 3 bathrooms. I'll be in 7th heaven if we get it.
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Anyone remember my huge work dilemma?
It has arisen again. Same job, same company, I finally interviewed, It pays MUCH more than IM making now, so keep your fingers crossed. A few of you know the issues I face @ current job, & how its pretty much dissolved 1 friendship, so all loyalties aside. I'm taking it if it goes thru.
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Monday, July 14, 2008

Trip part 2

After eating we loaded back up, first feeding the gulls.lol then headed back for the docks just in time to line up.











WHOOPS! I forgot to grab the tick
ets from the glovebox, so we all raced back to the car, got the tickets & rushed back to the boat, thinking we were going to get crummy seats.
It wasnt too full so the girls alternated between the upper deck on the outside & the lower deck which was inside.











Me & Jeff pretty much stayed above deck & snapped a few hundred photos.












It was quite chilly & the girls couldn't take the cold much, so I plied them wit
h a few dollars & they found the snack bar!









We traveled into the American side lock & watched the water rise,









then we sailed on out across into Canadian waters,










also visiting the Algoma Steel plant,












& seeing several sailboats,






















freighters & ships along the way.











WHAT A VIEW!
Then we came back into the Canadian side lock & watched the water go down to join us into Lake Huron





















& back into American waters.











This was a fantastic tour.


Sunday, July 13, 2008

Trip part 1

OK, ok, I'm finally getting with it!

Trip

We started out bright &
early about 4 am. Stopped @ QT for a top off of the tank & filled our mugs & the girls got a drink. They were snoring before we even hit the interstate.(of course Kayla had stayed up all night long....)
All went well til we were nearing Miami, Ok on I-44. It was foggy & still rather dark. We saw a
city type truck & they waved as we passed by. Odd I thought.
Then traffic was slowing down, then slower, slower.....dead standstill. We were sittin
g there for almost 20 minutes when finally Jeff got online via mobile broadband & contacted the Highway Patrol. Seems there was a semi on fire up ahead. Great.......So we sat & sat & sat & sat & sat some more. Eventually , folks were getting out of their cars & gathering to talk on the roadside. We were making sandwiches from the cooler in the trunk & the kids were still snoring away. After almost 2 hours of sitting, we finally started to move.














As we near
ed the Miami exit, the accident revealed itself. Seems a semi pulling a car transport full of new cars hit the concrete barrier in the fog & lost control, it rolled on its side taking the trailer with it, & caught on fire. We never found out the fate of the driver, or if there were any other injuries. Anyone out there knows, it'd be much appreciated.
The rest of the trip goes pretty smooth, various stops for drinks & potty breaks earned Jeff the nickname of Peepot & Abi the name of Peebody.
We made it into Michigan & still burning daylight.Cant imagine how good time we'd have made without the 2 hour stop. We were trucking along pretty good, thinking wed see the
exit we needed for I-196, when Jeff noticed the "Welcome to Kalamazoo County" sign.



Whoops. He'd missed his exit som
e ways back. So we turn around & manage to make it back to our motel we'd reserved.
When we got there, there was a misunderstanding of the price. Seems they
'd jacked their rates. Hmmm, must have something to do with the owner being under house arrest for smuggling illegals in from India. LMFAO
We get to our room & all seems ok til we open the roll away bed. Not o
nly is there a condom wrapper shoved inside it but the mattress is torn & looks like someone wiped their ass across it.
Just a forewarning; don't stay at the Flat River Inn
(Flat River Inn & Suites. Flat River Inn & Suites 1104 West Washington Greenville, MI 48838. Phone: (616)754-3668. )


Other things we encounter are the fact its not too terribly clean & both nights that we stayed, when we awoke in the morning, I had a headache & Jeff felt sick. I also had a throaty cough. Kayla couldn't seem to get woke up for awhile. We're thinking there was a mold issue there as there was evidence of prior water damage in the room. Jeff put a call into the Montcalm health dept. hehehe

So Sunday morning we headed over & grabbed the boys & took off for Holland. There we saw the Nelis Dutch Village & Windmill Island. The kids had a really good time, we plunked down a bit of cash & walked all over. It was fantastic, a little cliche but very quaint. :)











Afterward we went out for Chinese. Mmmmmmmmmmm
After dropping off the boys we went back to the hellhole motel & got everything packed for a very early am departure. We all crashed pretty early.
bright & early we took off, still half asleep for Sault Ste. Marie. Going over the Mackinac bridge was awesome, if a little daunting, 5 mile suspension bridge, longest in the US.









While looking for a bathroom, I noticed a sign near a little rustic restaurant that offer
ed rooms for as low as 20-40. I mentioned it to Jeff & we decided to go inside & check it out. They showed us a room, it was fairly charming, a little outdated, but CLEAN. big priority. We went ahead & reserved a room.














We went on our way & soon came to Sault Ste. Marie, driving around a little we finally found the docks.Jeff went in & bought the tickets for the Soo Locks tour & me & the g
irls took the opportunity to snap a bunch of photos. It was a nice 55 degrees or so at this time.










When he came back, we looked around the shop & office a little & in the gift shop, then went to find food. We found a BK up the way & Abi was determined to save her fries for the Seagu
lls. LOL We wore our BK king crowns while eating too!



To be continued.......

Thursday, June 26, 2008

random stuff

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I know, I know, I promised trip photos. We're working on getting them up on a website. I was going to do that tonight but we had a baby instead. :0
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Baby, My niece Jessica finally had her little girl. Alyssa haylen Dowell entered the world today at 5:09 P.M. She was 6 lbs. 12 oz & 20" long. happy birthday Alyssa










































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It's been a crazy 3 days back at work, busy as hell, not just the normal hectic workday stuff, but also playing catch up from my week off. Nice to know Im missed & needed.....................
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Supposed to have a house full of kids this weekend. We shall see. Kayla aka Bean Butt, is inviting over the other 3 of the Fearsome Foursome. That is always a blast......
Abigail, aka Manly Stanley, is inviting over her BFF Sandy. The 2 of them together, I'm sire will drive me insane.
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Monday, June 23, 2008

I is back!!!

Im back from vacation! I have over 2000 pix & tons of stories to tell.
I also have a random thoughts blog to write up. Give me a few hours 7 up she goes. Toodles!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

School Library Renamed in Honor of Volunteer


A man that dedicated his life to an area elementary school is now forever immortalized in that school’s library. A committee appointed by Board of Education president Gary Percefull approved creating the Mike Chittom Library at Celia Clinton Elementary. Chittom was chairman of the Rotary Club of Tulsa’s Adopt-A-School committee for Celia Clinton. The club adopted the school in 1993 and spent the next decade-and-a-half donating office furniture, clothes, landscaping and mentoring readers.

Chittom passed away Jan. 17 at the age of 56, the day after attending a pizza party at the school. Administrators brought in grief counselors to help students cope with his death.

“Mike was an incredible volunteer,” said Celia Clinton Principal Cindy Taylor. “He worked here for ten years, here every day.”

In 2003 Chittom spoke about his relationship with the school.

“This summer, with school out, a little girl started calling me every week to go to church with her. That church, which is a poor one, ministers to all the poor people in the neighborhood where our adopted school is located. I finally went and, much to my surprise, there were at least 10 children from our adopted school there. They all ran to me and hugged me,” he said. “…I have six sacks of love notes and letters of appreciation from children who I was lucky enough to help. There is no greater reward on this Earth that I know of.”

Thursday, May 29, 2008

I got a new car!!!!!!!!!!!!!


& I did it all by myself, got the financing, picked it out, did a test drive & drove it off the lot. it's a 2007 Chevy Impala. NIIIIIIIIIIIIICe car, rides soooo smooth. its Bordeaux red, which is really more like maroon. its gorgeous & has less than 30,000 miles. YAY me!

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Randomness, or aka workblogging part 464,767,886,702,348,972,578,6576

hurting like hell today. Haven t ached like this in some time. There are days when I forget I have FM/CFS. Other days it slams me in the face as a nice little reminder. Like the days I cannot keep awake. Oh how I love falling asleep in the bathroom! Or dozing off at my desk & in my shallow sleep, making some moaning-ish sound. Yeah, loads of fun.
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Had a near panic attack today. I was getting a DHL packet ready for OKC & looked at my hand. No engagement ring! I FREAKED! I rarely ever take it off. I tore my car apart, my purse, looked all over the office & sent out an office wide email to have them keep their eyes open. I called mom to have her check my desk, just in case. No ring. SHIT.
She walked to the other bathroom & checked the cabinet. No ring. SHIT SHIT. Looked around some more & there in the bath floor, it lay. WOO HOOOOOO. I don't have to get an ass whooping from Jeff. I have to go get that thing resized. I don't want to go thru that ever again!
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Had a baby scare Sunday night. Jessica called & thought her water had broke. So her dr says to have her come in to the hospital. We go get her & sit up there til 1 am. Come to find out, the little shit & Andrew were getting it on earlier & as the Dr. put it..."What goes up, must come down." UGH
However, the look on her face was priceless.....
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Gotten addicted to myspace surveys lately. Have a look.
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Friday, we had company. It was supposed to be Abigail inviting her BFF Sandy over for the night, turns out Sandy never informed her Dad. lol, they were going camping. Before we knew this, I had told Kayla she could invite her BFF Valerie over as well. Well, she invited Valerie, & Rachel & Lois......The Gruesome Foursome.lol
They were surprisingly good tho. May be having them over again this weekend if Sandy can come. Should be tons of fun......
Either that or I'm just freaking nuts.
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Sitting here jamming to tunes @ work while I blog. Gotta love it.
I have my mp3 in one ear, the other open so I can hear whats going on around me.
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Work has been a total bitch of late. I'm so burned out. Cant hardly wait til June to get away for a week. Don't even mind the long ass drive just so I can get away. However, I have a feeling Ill walk into the 7th layer of hell when I come back.
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By the way, a special thanks to out men & women serving our country. Especially the hot ass Marines. lol
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Friday, May 9, 2008

Henryville part 2

More photos can be found here















Henryville!




Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Random thoughts

Usually I like the rain, today it feels different. Like theres something about to happen, the proverbial hammer is about to fall. I cant describe it, explain it, or put my finger on it, I just know its about to happen.
I question how it will affect me. Sometimes I just get restless & I know a change is about to occur. Not an everyday change, but something life altering. I am changing as well, I have been irritable, short-tempered & feeling very agitated. I snap at people or fall into a doom & gloom pool.
Not sure what to make of it. If it is simply hormone induced, then it should pass soon, but its been going on awhile, so I'm inclined to believe it is not that.
I feel ready to run, to be honest, to grab my girls & hit the road. I need a break, some space, some breathing room & a chance to clear my head. The last 4-5 years have been fucking nuts. The end of my marriage, the whole idiot saga, my divorce, Jeff, the issues in my house, moving several times, job changes, all of it.....I am exhausted. At the same time, I'm bursting with an urge to DO something. But what?

This weekend was actually nice. slept in some on Saturday , Jeff worked so me & the girls had some free time. We mostly vegged out,
Sunday we took a drive to River Parks & walked around, fed the ducks, but it was very crowded. Then we could hear drumming, we started looking for it & saw a 4 man band walking around, one wearing a gas mask, the other a 'sars' mask, one playing a bongo, another banging on a mailbox ((yes really!), one playing cans. It was bizarre, they marched all around the park, not saying a word. Turns out it was the band that was performing live at the little patio bar they have out there. Definitely got everyones attention.









Id have liked to stayed & had a drink or 2 & listened but Jeff didn't want to, neither did the girls. SO we wandered down to the kids park where Abi played awhile. Then we packed it up & went to Woodward park, beautiful pout there,















got some great shots of the girls & some floral shots too.










Also saw this little squirrel, he wasn't shy at all, practically posed for the camera!









Ive been at work over a year now. Still don't feel a lot different. funny how that is


Me & Jeff are approaching 2 year anniversary, just a few more days, wonder if he'll realize that?

By the way, I have a HUGE addiction to Sonic's Java Chillers. OMG, heaven in a cup.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

funny.....

How one can have a good day til someone intervenes....

Friday, April 25, 2008

HAHAHA, I love it

  1. Abstinence Makes the Church Grow Fondlers
  2. Honk If Your Religious Beliefs Make You An Asshole
  3. Intelligent Design Makes My Monkey Cry
  4. Too Stupid to Understand Science? Try Religion.
  5. There’s A REASON Why Atheists Don’t Fly Planes Into Buildings
  6. “Worship Me or I Will Torture You Forever. Have a Nice Day.”­ God.
  7. God Doesn’t Kill People. People Who Believe in God Kill People.
  8. If There is No God, Then What Makes the Next Kleenex Pop Up?
  9. He’s Dead.

    It’s Been 2,000 years.
    He’s Not Coming Back.
    Get OVER It Already!

  10. All religion is simply evolved out of fraud, fear, greed, imagination, and poetry. ~Edgar Allen Poe.~
  11. Viva La EvoluciĆ³n!
  12. Actually, If You Look It Up, The Winter Solstice Is The Reason For The Season
  13. I Wouldn’t Trust Your God Even If He Did Exist
  14. Cheeses Is Lard. Argue With THAT If You Can.
  15. People Who Don’t Want Their Beliefs Laughed at Shouldn’t Have Such Funny Beliefs
  16. Jesus is Coming? Don’t Swallow That.
  17. Threatening Children With Hell Is FUN!
  18. GOD - APPLY DIRECTLY TO FOREHEAD!
  19. Jesus Told Me Republicans SUCK
  20. God + Whacky Tobacky = Platypus
  21. God Doesn’t Exist. So, I Guess That Means No One Loves You.
  22. When the Rapture Comes, We’ll Get Our Country Back!
  23. Q. How Do We Know the Holy Ghost Was Catholic?
    A. He Used the Rhythm Method Instead of a Condom.
  24. You Say “Heretic” Like It Was a BAD Thing
  25. I Love Christians. They Taste Like Chicken.
  26. Science: It Works, Bitches.
  27. “Intelligent Design” Helping Stupid People Feel Smart Since 1987
  28. I Found God Between The Sheets
  29. I Gave Up Superstitious Mumbo Jumbo For Lent
  30. My Flying Monkey Can Beat Up Your Guardian Angel
  31. Every Time You Play With Yourself, God Kills a Kitten
  32. If God Wanted People to Believe in Him, Then Why Did He Invent Logic?
  33. Praying Is Politically Correct Schizophrenia
  34. ALL Americans Are African Americans
  35. I Forget - Which Day Did God Make All The Fossils?
  36. I Was An Atheist Until The Hindus Convinced Me That I Was God
  37. The Spanish Inquisition: The Original Faith-based Initiative
  38. If we were made in his image, when why aren’t humans invisible too?
  39. JESUS SAVES….You From Thinking For Yourself
  40. How Can You Disbelieve in Evolution If You Can’t Even Define It?
  41. Q. How Can You Tell That Your God is Man-made?

    A. If He Hates All the Same People You Do.

  42. Every Time You See a Rainbow, God is Having Gay Sex
  43. I Went to Public School in Kansas and All I Got Was This Lousy T-shirt and a Poor Understanding of the Scientific Method.
  44. WWJD = We Won. Jesus Died.
  45. The Family That Prays Together is Brainwashing the Children
  46. Oh, Look, Honey Another Pro-lifer For War
  47. Another Godless Atheist for Peace and World Harmony
  48. God is Unavailable Right Now. Can I Help You?
  49. When Lip Service to Some Mysterious Deity Permits Bestiality on
    Wednesday and Absolution on Sundays, Cash Me Out. ~Frank Sinatra.~
  50. No Gods. No Mullets.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

It never ceases...


...to amaze me the ignorance some people can possess. Take my ex for example. He had forbidden his son to be over here, so we'd meet up in public places like the parks s the kids could be together & I have missed that little boy incredibly. Apparently my little one let it slip somehow that we had met up & he came unglued on his grandmother, whom he lives with. Now his grandma has no issues with him being around me. She knows the truth. She knows that for years, my ex didn't even know where his son lived, not did he ever pay him any attention. So every time he was at our house, a lot of times, every single weekend & holiday, it was me & him & the girls doing things. his dad wanted nothing to do with him, nor being a family. he wouldn't go to picnics, family outings, zoo, none of it. he'd prefer to lie around & stay drunk. My stepson treated me & considered me his other mom, & as far as I am concerned he IS my son. He always will be. I helped raise him for over 6 years, he is a part of my life. I talk to him here & there, not as much as Id like to, but, he is 12 years old now, lol.
So tomorrow we are planning a picnic, & he can't be there because said ex is being a total jackass, as usual. He thinks he is hurting me, he is hurting those kids. All 3 of them. The girls have attempted to ask him about it & he refuses to discuss it with them, as if it doesn't affect or concern them. Whatever.... His grandmother tells me I can visit there anytime Id like to. Well, I'll be doing just that. No worthless excuse for a man will prevent me from seeing my son. I love that little boy.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

BLEH

Left work early today, have a freaking cold. Yuck. I HATE being sick. I'm miserable. Came home tho, cracked the bedroom windows to air out the room, laid on the couch & listened to the rain for a while before I drifted of into good sweet sleep. Wish I could just hook up a vacuum to my nose.

update on wreck BS

I got the ticket dismissed, took al of 2 minutes, just had to show the verification. Yay.
Turns out mommy's boy, Mr. Caleb Mullins, who goes to ORU has no damn insurance. The policy had been canceled. The prick is uninsured. SO guess what? I'm taking them to small claims court. NO, the damage wasn't much to my car but its the principle of the matter. I didn't mess it up & it wasn't like that before. I carry insurance & always keep it current. Why should he be allowed to ruin peoples lives & property & have no consequence. If her name is on the vehicle, (his Mommy) I'll name her in the suit too.

To do......

Cultivate gratitude.
Carve out an hour a day for solitude.
Begin and end the day with prayer, meditation, or reflection.
Keep it simple.
Keep your house picked up.
Don't overschedule.
Strive for realistic deadlines.
Never make a promise you can't keep.
Allow an extra half hour for everything you do.
Create quiet surroundings at home and at work.
Go to bed at 9 o'clock twice a week.
Breathe--deeply and often.
Move--walk, dance, run, find a sport you enjoy.
Drink pure spring water. Lots of it.
Eat only when you're hungry.
If it's not delicious, don't eat it.
Be instead of do.
Set aside one day a week for rest and renewal.
Laugh more often.
Luxuriate in your senses.
Always opt for comfort.
If you don't love it, live without it.
Let Mother Nature nurture.
Don't answer the telephone during dinner.
Stop trying to please everybody.
Start pleasing yourself.
Stay away from negative people.
Don't squander precious resources: time, creative energy, emotion.
Nurture friendships.
Don't be afraid of your passion.
Approach problems as challenges instead.
Honor your aspirations.
Surrender expectations.
Savor beauty.
Create boundaries.
Exchange security for serenity.
Care for your soul.
Express love every day.
Search for your authentic self until you find her.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Funny shit & sucky shit & painful shit


Yesterday when I left work, I saw Nancy walking across the lot, so gunned the car like I was gonna nail her. She looked up & ran to the side. I was laughing my ass off. I look back, Arlene has a look of total shock & nancys on the curb holding her chest. OH SHIT! I throw the car in park & go to her to apologize. As I approach her she busts out laughing. Gotcha. UGh, ya bitch.lol I look ahead & my fucking car is rolling by itself towards 71st street, at 5 pm........oh FUCK. I RUNNNNN after it, as fast as a fat girl can run, jerk open the door, only to find miss Debbie behind the wheel. I almost threw her out of the car. How funny. Then ran by Cheri's to get her tax info so I can do her taxes b4 the deadline. Right after leaving, I was about 63/ Yale, I was stopped at a light. Heard screech of tires, started to look back, then heard BANG BANG & Wham. Got hit from behind. Turns out some jerk off going too fast & not paying attention slammed into a van, shoving them into another car, which got shoved into me. Got minor damage to back bumper & now it makes a funky noise , kind of a clunk when im moving, also tailpipe, or something rattles. Fuck. shit. IM sore as hell, back, neck & shoulders fuckign HURT. Have a headache from hell too. The guy behind me had a brand new car, he was on his way to get his tags.....lol, his was BAD, the lady in the back of him, had 2 little girls, miraculously, noone was really hurt much. Her van had the back bumper ripped half off, & front end damage. We say there about 20 min waiting for the cops, no medics ever showed, even th children were involved . grrrrrrrrr. When I was hit, all my papers & shit flew off the dash & visor, throwing my insurance verification somewhere, I couldnt find it anywhere, so by law, I got a ticket for no ins. The guy in the back was cited tho for the accident, basically following too closely, speeding, no ins verification on him(his momy brought it to him-lol) & tags, his were due back in November. Geez. & he was an ORU student. Figures..... I'm still waiting for a call from the fucking ins co, i called them this morning.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Just bleh

It's been a very blah couple of days. its gray & gloomy & rainy & I've just generally felt like crap. Met up with an old school friend Sunday. that was really nice. WOW, she had changed! But it was still the same Joyce.A little older, a lot wiser, but the same sweet wonderful Joyce inside that she always was. I cant believe we let so many years come between us. Our kids could have grown up together. I am a little sad over that. But there is no time like the present right?
I have also connected with a few other friends too. Cheri, & Bev. It's like meeting them all over again. Cheri's daughter just turned 13 . Nice to connect over teenagers. it's weird. As well, Joyce's daughter is about to turn 13 too. We also each have younger children about the same age. it's strange those little coincidences. I am meeting up with Cheri this weekend for Alex's birthday party. We have been talking thru email a good bit of late & its amazing how much she has changed, funny how time makes people grow up, huh?
I know Ive grown & changed a lot. Bev is different too, yet still Bev. It's nice to have that link to the past be reopened.
But my best best best friend , lives far away. She's the one I can pour my heart out to & I love you Courtney, & not in a "I wanna crawl in bed with you' kind of way.LOL
Anyway, enough sappy shit, I'm tired, I'm sore & i need a shower. Toodles!

Monday, March 31, 2008

Damn blanket! or Workblogging edition #89746787789984899

So it's Monday. UH huh, it sure is. Looks like Monday (gray & gloomy), smells like Monday (coffee & rain) & sounds like Monday (yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn), well hell, guess it is then. Here I was, hoping for another day of rest.
I had a question for a christian friend of mine the other day & the answer he gave me, well.....wasn't what I was looking for. Christians, most anyway , seem to think 'satan' causes them to do evil. But when they die, theyre supposed to go to hell & be punished. OK, so if satan causes you to 'sin', why would he punish you for doing it?
Seems like theres a big ol party goin on down there, by way of that reasoning.
My way of thinking? A part of me wants t believe in reincarnation, another thinks, when youre dead. Youre D.E.A.D. Thats the end of it. Kind of like the way I feel this morning. Bleh. Just....bleh.
Sleep seems elusive, a hundred million things going on in my head & wont let me sleep, why cant i just tell those ashsoles to STFU, already?Eyes are barely staying open here, keep closing, I swear, I can hear that damn red fuzzy blankie calling me from home. (velvety whispery tones) "Curl up under me.....wrap me around you....let me caress you in my fuzzy warm goodness....."
UIRGGGGGGGGGG SHhhhhhhhhhh.
"Blanket", I say (cuz I talk to it in my head, I'm just cool like that)
"You need to be quiet. Its hard to get work done with you talking"
Mmmmmmmmmm, Im all soft & warm..."
"BE quiet blanket!"
"love me...............cuddle with me.........."
"LALALALALALALA I can't hear you!"(fingers in ears)
Finally I shut that bitch up, by closing my eyes, ACK! I can hear it in my sleep deprived dreams!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

101 things in a 1001 days


101 things in a 1001 days
The object is to make 101 realistic goals you can accomplish in 1001 days,, which equals out to about 2.7 years.
Then track your goals as you accomplish them
1 achieve goal weight
2 jog 3 miles 3 x a week
3spend more time wih the girls
4 take each girl out 1x a month
5go see a movie i really like, by myself
6start kickboxing again
7 take bellydancing classes
8get a manicure
9get a pedicure
10get health insurance
11grow the flowers i planted & keep them alive
12clean up an area 1x a month
13go bike riding 2x a month
14celebrate every full moon & sabbat for a year
15connect on a more personal level with each of my friends
16make a road trip to Courtneys
17road trip to Jans
18Drink more water
19Eat less junk food
20Walk more often
21Go one week without drinking soda
22Brush and floss every day for 30 days straight
. 23Write 10 poems
24Attempt a painting of some kind
25. Do a "day in the life" with photos
26 Make a list of things that make me happy
27. Take more pictures for picture frame
28. Declutter everything
29. Send a secret to PostSecret
30 keep better contact with my friends
31gey my BOS up to date
32volunteer my time cleaning the river
33write to dad mor eoften
34buy a house
35buy a new car
36get a promotion to closer @ work
37fly a kite
38woolaroc museum
39okc bombing memorial
40make most of my gifts for yule
41concealed carry permit
42redo DD site
43be more diligent with PW site
44 Compose a “If something dire ever happens to me” letter and give it to a family member
45Write a letter to each family member telling them why I love them
46sit on the porch just watching the day with the girls
47draw on the driveway with chalk with the kids
48make flower chains with Abigail
49take Kayla to anime convention
50go camping
51start a compost pile
52gro my nails
53get all my photos in a scrapbook or frames
54Attend one of those pottery classes/days with the kids
55take mom to the casion101 things in 1001 days
The object is to make 101 realistic goals you can accomplish in 1001 days,, which equals out to about 2.7 years.
Then track your goals as you accomplish them
1 achieve goal weight
2 walk 3 miles 3 x a week
3 spend more time with the girls
4 take each girl out 1x a month
5 go see a movie I really like, by myself
6 start kickboxing again
7 take bellydancing classes
8 get a manicure
9 get a pedicure
10 get health insurance
11 grow the flowers I planted & keep them alive
12 clean up an area 1x a month
13 go bike riding 2x a month
14 celebrate every full moon & sabbat for a year
15 connect on a more personal level with each of my friends
16 make a road trip to Courtney’s
xxxx17 road trip to Jan’s
18 Drink more water
19 Eat less junk food
20 Walk more often
21 Go one week without drinking soda
22 Brush and floss every day for 30 days straight
23 Write 10 poems
24 Attempt a painting of some kind
25. Do a "day in the life" with photos
26 Make a list of things that make me happy
xxxx27. Take more pictures for picture frame
28. Declutter everything
xxxx29. Send a secret to PostSecret
30 keep better contact with my friends
31 get my BOS up to date
32 volunteer my time cleaning the river
33 write to dad more often
34 buy a house
xxxx35 buy a new car
36 get a promotion to closer @ work
37 fly a kite
38 woolaroc museum
39 okc bombing memorial
40 make most of my gifts for Yule
41 concealed carry permit
42 redo DD site
43 be more diligent with PW site
44 Compose a “If something dire ever happens to me” letter and give it to a family member
45 Write a letter to each family member telling them why I love them
46 sit on the porch just watching the day with the girls
47 draw on the driveway with chalk with the kids
48 make flower chains with Abigail
xxxx49 take Kayla to anime convention
50 go camping
51 start a compost pile
52 grow my nails
53 get all my photos in a scrapbook or frames
54 Attend one of those pottery classes/days with the kids
55 take mom to the casino
56 Take pictures of my children EVERY WEEK and document how much they change.
57 Start a spiritual journal.
58 Take my vitamins every day for three weeks.
59 meditate daily for a month
60 have a girl’s night out once a month
xxxx61 get more sleep
62 get a real massage
63 renew my CPR
64 start selling on eBay again
65 Clean my house thoroughly once a month for a year.
66 Start selling crafts on the side.
67 lead full moon circle by myself
68 ride bike 1x a week for 2 months
69 get shed organized
70 get attic organized
xxxx71 redo Kayla’s room
xxxx72 redo Abi’s room
73 redo our room
74 paint inside of house
75 redo liv room floors
76 attend 20 year reunion
77 wax
78 brush the cats 3x a week for a month
79 vacuum daily
80 finish house list
81 set up 4 directions in back yard
xxxxx82 get new camera
83 sing karaoke
84 go to gym 1x a week
85 do tae bo 1x a week
86 take girls roller skating
87 get dental work done
88 jog 3 miles 3 x a week
89 go to museum alone-philbrook
90 get up at 7 am on Saturdays for 1 month
91 buy a lottery ticket per month
92 play board game w/ girl’s 1x a month
93 find a place to shoot gun
94 take girls to Lake Tenkiller
95 Fast for 24 hours
96 Moisturize every morning and evening for a month
97 read a book while lying in the park
98 Climb a tree
99 go swing 1x a week for a month
100 get tattooed
101 join a class at the gym

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian

OK, first I must say, IM not trying to offend my Christian friends. For those of you, I have the utmost respect, You are capable of knowing the difference between a true Christian & those in name only.


Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian


10 - You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of yours.

9 - You feel insulted and "dehumanized" when scientists say that people evolved from other life forms, but you have no problem with the Biblical claim that we were created from dirt.

8 - You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believing in a Triune God.

7 - Your face turns purple when you hear of the "atrocities" attributed to Allah, but you don't even flinch when hearing about how God/Jehovah slaughtered all the babies of Egypt in "Exodus" and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in "Joshua" including women, children, and trees!

6 - You laugh at Hindu beliefs that deify humans, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got killed, came back to life and then ascended into the sky.

5 - You are willing to spend your life looking for little loopholes in the scientifically established age of Earth (few billion years), but you find nothing wrong with believing dates recorded by Bronze Age tribesmen sitting in their tents and guessing that Earth is a few generations old.

4 - You believe that the entire population of this planet with the exception of those who share your beliefs -- though excluding those in all rival sects - will spend Eternity in an infinite Hell of Suffering. And yet consider your religion the most "tolerant" and "loving."


3 - While modern science, history, geology, biology, and physics have failed to convince you otherwise, some idiot rolling around on the floor speaking in "tongues" may be all the evidence you need to "prove" Christianity.

2 - You define 0.01% as a "high success rate" when it comes to answered prayers. You consider that to be evidence that prayer works. And you think that the remaining 99.99% FAILURE was simply the will of God.

1 - You actually know a lot less than many atheists and agnostics do about the Bible, Christianity, and church history - but still call yourself a Christian.

The way we were....or my past comes back

I think about my past a lot. I don't know why. I don't think Id want to go back into my past & I don't really want to change much of anything. If my past changed, it would change who I am now. Although I cant help but wondering how things would be different if I had done this....or not done that. Well, you get the picture.
IF I could change 'em...
1) I would have stood up to that stupid Janie when I was a little kid
2) Id have told my mom about the school spanking I got
3) Id have had my parents stay together-this is a double sided one. I like my mom as the free thinker she is & she was kind of a meek mouse when she was with Dad. On the other hand, maybe her life wouldn't have been so hard, & still be hard.
Actually, this one has the potential to change more things than anything else, so don't know...
4) Id have told my mom about the creep next door & the guy down the street.....:(
5) Id have slapped the shit out of Maureen Brauner & Shannon Willsey when the opportunity presented itself. Is it sad that this still bugs me? lol
6) Id have done better in school, stayed more focused & asked for help when I needed it, gotten Mom involved or been vocal as hell over it.
7) Id have kept in better touch with school friends. A lot of wasted time without some of them in my lives. I'm very happy I have the important ones to me back in my life (Joyce, Lanette, Bev,Cheri, you know who you are).
8) I would have joined the military. Seriously. I had serious thoughts of doing this & I really Wish I would have. many opportunities would have opened up for me if I would have.
9) Wish I would have wised up in 2000, when I was pregnant with Abigail. This really doesn't need further saying, but I would have still had my girls, but not the emotional trauma I went thru, that I NEVER got an apology for.
10) I wish Id have handled my divorce differently. Nuff said there....
11) I wish Id have jumped on the job that Janet offered me. 35K a year would go a long way for me.
I always thought Id be further along in my life than I am now. Makes me a little sad to see I really don't have much to show. I have my girls though, & they mean the world to me, for those 2 reasons alone, I wouldn't change things.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Where ah been....

Oh my it has been an interesting week. I've started walking. Going again today, I really look forward to it & enjoy going. I look forward to getting to where I can jog the 3 miles instead of walking it. The path I take goes up behind my old HS. Its weird. I can recall all the fun we had, all the trouble we got into. I remember skipping class & hanging at Jesse's. 13 people in a red closet anyone?
Also remember walking from the school to Bev's house. Wow, amazing the energy we had as kids. Id love to just go walking thru the school again. I went in when my niece was going there, it was weird. So much had changed, but a lot was still the same. Id just love to walk from class to class like I did before. rushing to & fro, taking steps 4 or 5 at a time, sliding to a halt just as the bell rang.I remember eating ketchupy fries at the smoke hole, or skipping lunch altogether to just talk with friends. The good ol days................lol
Anyhoo, I look forward to working myself back into shape, gonna walk every day that I can, then get back to the gym as well, start hitting the elliptical's, & some of the weight machines as well. I think if I do the weights, Ill build up the muscle mass to keep skin from looking all ick. I've been doing a lot of research on that, I think its possible to lose the weight w/out the nasty flappy skin. It involves replacing fat mass with muscle mass. Skin is very thin anyway, so realistically, when someone has 6 or 7" of 'skin on their abdomen, its not all skin. There's fat there too. Skin is a living growing organ & in most younger people, it should be accommodating the body it covers. So we will see. That's my belief anyway.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Yeah yeah yeah I know.

I've been a bad girl. Been a busy bad girl.
Kids been sick, I've been sick. Trying to get my house in order, spring cleaning is in full swing @ my house too. I'm in a raging full purge mode. Tossing stuff left & right. How can a household accumulate so much crap?
This Sunday Medicine Clan is doing Ostara. I can't wait. I got a lot out of our last gathering, nice to be with community again.
This coming Friday is Mom's 61st Bday. I want to surprise her , so I intend to get home early & get dinner made, plus pick up a cheesecake @ SAMS. Theirs are uber-awesome. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm (drool).Tomorrow the girls are coming up to work after school to stuff Easter eggs for our office monthly charity & also to help Kendall out w/ her BACA project for Laura Dester shelter. It will be a good thing for the girls to do plus earns Kayla a few hours for her yearly community service she does @ school. This weekend is more cleaning, organizing. I'm tackling the back yard & shed. yuck.
Then NEXT Friday is Ostara @ Chandler w/ Gloria. Cant wait for that one, I'm also gonna give Lee a ride to that.
Then Sat is the moon @ Owen park, I'm supposed to be leading that, not sure if I'm doing it or not as I haven't gotten much feedback from Marc. Hell, I haven't heard from him for a month now. Need to get that site moved as well. Bleh. At some point, I want to make it down to the river too, also get to the gym at least 2x this coming week.
Just been soooooooooooooooo busy.
Diets going good, Down 2 more pounds, sinned a little today, but back on the wagon tomorrow. I feel much better when I eat well. Body just feels cleaner.
We're looking for a new couch too. The one we have was nice at one time. It is a large sectional, tan in color, microfiber, 2 incliner's, fold out bed & all. Mom paid about 1500. for it.Nice....at one time. When I moved out of my home, during my divorce, the ex moved in w/ his girlfriend & moved his trashy brother in the house. Well, when i saw the couch again(when they were gonna throw it to the curb), it looked like it had been rubbed din the dirt. it was filthy, almost black in spots, had cat scratches & some cigarette burns on it. Disgusting. I went ahead & took it, scrubbed & scrubbed it. Found out some of the springs for the bed were gone, the pieces that attached it together were gone, & some places were rubbed the fabric off, the cushion zipper was busted on 2 cushions, & other stuff. i was so pissed. they lived there about 5 months before the house was foreclosed on-since he didn't make the payments like he said he was going to......Oh well.
We looked at several today, we think we found one we like, going back tomorrow to close the deal. :)