Friday, January 30, 2009

enough to make you think

Now, Obama fans can just stop reading. I really don't care. This issue was swept under the rug & ignored. Theres too many facts to ignore.



We have a seperate internet business account for Jeffs biz, its pricy but generally worth the cost, considering all he does on it. Well.........
we get the latest bill & theres a 25. charge on it plus an additional 10. charge for 2 IP addresses. Jeff was told 5 were included at no additional charge.
SO he calls them up. Turns out the 25. is a reconnect fee as I was late on a payment last month & it actually got cut off.
Ok, thats fair I guess. Painful buit I should have remembered to pay it on time, right?
However, they are charging 5. each for the Ip addresses & they now say only 1 is free. Huh?
Then they go on to say we see you actually have 5 IP's. So now you will be seeing another 10. charge for those. so 20. for the 4 IP's that were supposed to be free?
What. The. fuck?

workblogging pt. 394838787638423-93-09148949275843758210928423984753497520983-193109.09238u5843275834

I have to say Im incredibly bored here. The low pay isn't helping either. I thoughti was going to be working with a loan officer, learning that trade & processing, but Im stuck in post closing. Cant say Im crazy about it. sigh..................
If I was making more & had some kind of benefits, it would be better, I guess. Ah well.
I continue my job search.

Girls are at their dads this weekend. IM sure yet again i wont have my child support til sundathe 1st. even tho according to them im to have it by the 30th & according to court, IM to have it all by the 15th. Maybe I shouldnt complain but it just irks me.
Irks me even more to know hes not actually paying it. Susan is.
Filed taxes the other night. I claimed earned income on both girls, considering Heath hasnt worked a day last year, he has no earned income. Not sure how he was qualifying for it anyhow before, pretty sure he makes over the allowed limit, by the time you threw in his commission & overtime. Jeff made too much for EIC & I think they were fairly on par with income levels.
I didnt claim them both for dependants but I did for EIC & will continue to do so. Nowhere in the decree does it say I cant, just tht he can claim one of them as a dependant. Pretty sure they haver to LIVE with you for that anyhow. He can just get over it.
Hating the feeling that I have no real friends. Friends to talk to on the phone, by email, or just hang with. Any friendship I had with certain person seemed to disappear when we worked together. Coutney is too far away & wrapped in her own life, Cheri & Joyce are AWOL, come to think of it, thats pretty much it. Sad, really.
Maybe Im just on my pity pot today.....
finances......geez, maybe I shouldnt get started. Im making a LOT less than I realized. Thought it would even out with no deductions but it doesnt. Not complaining cuz its better than unemployment but damn. I need mroe money to make ends meet. I dont know how were gonna do it.
Income tax should be in next week, Ill finally be able tog et my eyes done. COntacts are sooo old, Im ashamed to say how old they are. Likely Ive caused damage to my eyes from wearing them so long.:(
Another thing Ill be doing is getting a new gun & getting my CCW. Will be glad to be able to legally carry & be armed. But Id better hurry before the antigun , pro no rights prez takes that away from us too.
Will also have to repair my car. Some ass busted the front bumper & dented my front fender. :(:(:(
Really pisses me off. Gonna cost about a grand to get it done. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Going to try to move too if we can find a place. We shall see.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Tuesday, ice-day, taking the day off

I called in today. Not sure how much of it was due to the ice on the ground. I used to walk outside & revel in the wonders of the Goddess & all around. Now I sit in my warm home & barely look out my window. It's a hopelessness. I hate feeling this way. Generally when I am forced to get out of my 'hump', I feel better, but lack the motivation to get out & do it.Recently my daughter faced discrimination from one of her best friends due to her choosing Wicca as her religious belief. It hurts. I hate seeing her confused & upset. I kept her home this past Monday more for that reason than that she said she didn't feel well. Her friend decided that she can no longe rbe friends wth her since she is Wiccan. I don't get it. All along she's known about her beliefs. Now its an issue?She had no problems indulging in the hotel room I rented for her party last weekend, NOW it's an issue. Not cool.But I digress.I dont know where my path will end up, Im having a very hard time believing the things I once believed. I dont like to even put it in the past tense as it makes it seem....final.I dont want to give up, but at the same time I have to follow where my path leads. Anyone else ever had a crisis of spirit?

Friday, January 23, 2009


I'm having a really hard time getting out of bed in the mornings. Work is....unstimulating at best. Completely fucking boring at worst. I feel unproductive, useless & underutilized.
On the other hand, in this economy, I should be happy to have a job, any job. Seriously, its easy money I guess.
I thought it might be a chance for a step up & yeah Im ;learning some things, but its not really the direction I want to go in. Half the employees there are over the age of 50. I just feel........eh. I don't know how I feel.
Had thre weirdest feeling of deja-vu today, for a good 5 minutes. It's hapened before, usually followed by a dramatic change. Wonder whats next.......
Speaking of changes, new prez....Im already not crazy about the things that hes trying to do. I'll admit it, I was no fan of him before & I'm still not. What do we REALLY know about him?
Not a damned thing. That in & of itself is enough to scare the hell out of me.
Who knows where we'll be in 2012. Scary shit....

Monday, January 19, 2009

Wild weekend

So I lost my mind & decided to spend the weekend with teenagers trapped in a hotel room. lol
They had a blast. My daughters 14th bday, I rented her a room with a heated pool, hot tub, internet access & free breakfast. No cleanup. YAY!
They sang & danced in their bathing suits, hit the pool, wrestled around, played online, & had a great time. We ordered pizza & I had brought tons of snacks. Rachel passed out first. I thought about breaking out the sharpie markers but thought better of it (snicker).Pictured to follow later tonight.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Is child abuse legal?

I swear, I have never had school problems with my youngest before, but shes jumping head first into them. Shes failing 3rd grade. Shes not doing her work, not turning stuff in, not bringing stuff back.
What do you do with an 8 year old?
Beat her?
Seriously, I am grounding her, & going to sit on top of her at night, making sure she gets work done & am assigning her extra work as well. Something has to happen, or she will fail the third grade. Failure is not an option, not from laziness.
They are doing a vision/ hearing screening on her, trying to see if there's a physical reason for her having issues.
Teacher says shes lethargic in class, puts her head on her desk a lot, I guess I'll be adjusting bedtime as well. Come to think of it, shes been having trouble getting to sleep. No tv now. Her routine is going to be school, homework, short free time, dinner , bath & bed.
Any ideas? I welcome them.

On to the older one. Shes known about her science project since October & has yet to get it done. Its due the 22nd......
Sheer laziness. Time to shut the computer off too, make her use it only in the living room for class. I've had it with this crap. There's no excuse.

Friday, January 9, 2009

workblogging again..............& rant

day 5 & still bored, still not in a permanent place. Just hope things speed up some. makes the day go slower when not much to do. bleh.
Jeff's boss is screwing him out of a career move. He'd placed a bid to do wireless internet for a hotel. His boss' company knows jack about wireless setup. Jeff does. So when he won the bid to do the job, he was ecstatic, as it would be a step to his business taking off finally. Well..............boss decided he wants to venture there after all AFTER Jeff got the bid, & since he was going to do the biz as his biz for his job, his job has final say so.
& to top it off, his boss wants Jeff to do the work for him at hourly pay. Refuses to give him a raise, refuses to make him on site, refuses to give him the title of manager even tho he does the job & then some. Hes been working all week 10-14 hour days. For what?
Being screwed over?
What an asshole.

Tomorrow is My oldest's 14th birthday. Unbelievable. Shes growing so fast. Shes such a good kid too.
Im lucky. Wonder how long it will last?

Wednesday, January 7, 2009


What a sleepy sleepy day. Was awake til after 4 am. Damn insomnia is going to be the death of me. Alarm went off at 6:30 & it was all i could do to drag my ass out of the bed. I feel lousy.
Thought abut going walking today but may wait til tomorrow the way I feel, hell, Id probally fall asleep on my feet or pass out along the trail.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

workblogging pt oh hell who knows....

So todays the 2nd day here. IM getting more of an idea of things. I can like it here so far. People are nice, very friendly, I like that.
I got my laptop going here, dont have a decent computer so far. Theres an oldddd desktop here running win 98! omg, i never even worked on a 98. LMAO noone seems to really be worried what IM doing. Ill get my own deskspace later today or tomorrow. The only thing that bugs me so far is I have to wait til someone opens the doors to get in the building. Hope they give a key b4 long.
anyhoo, thats all for now.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Life moves on...

I got the j-o-b. Not the money i was hoping for & no benefits but hey, beggars cant be choosers & its more than I was making before not working. So thats a big weight off my shoulders.
my oldest niece is pregnant too. Its an odd situation. If you have access, see the other blog for more details. Im just hoping for the best for all concerned.
Jeff's on insulin now. He kept it from me almost a week. How do you forcre a 30yo man to take some responsibility for how he eats. Gripes to me about how we need to eat healthier for meals yet continues to munch on potato chips & had some crap ass hot dog from quiktrip yesterday & McD's today. I will NOT be your food police.........
Mom's got just a few more months til she can retire. Im so glad. I hate seeing her in pain so much. Hell, I think shes been in pain over half her life. The cards shes been dealt in life arent fair but I guess its what you make of them, we've survived, thats something isn't it?
been having really weird vivid dreams of late, some seem to have underlying tones that i just cant put my finger on. Today was beyond bizarre too. Have been edgy as hell, jumpy, like somethings gonna happen, that something just isnt right with the universe feeling. Took a shower today & had to look out several times, I was afraid someone was in the house, couldnt even sleep in the bedroom today, had to camp out on the couch, where i could see the door. I dont get it.
Other than the weird incidents, all in al, things are moving along. ok