Random thoughts

Usually I like the rain, today it feels different. Like theres something about to happen, the proverbial hammer is about to fall. I cant describe it, explain it, or put my finger on it, I just know its about to happen.

I question how it will affect me. Sometimes I just get restless & I know a change is about to occur. Not an everyday change, but something life altering. I am changing as well, I have been irritable, short-tempered & feeling very agitated. I snap at people or fall into a doom & gloom pool.

Not sure what to make of it. If it is simply hormone induced, then it should pass soon, but its been going on awhile, so I'm inclined to believe it is not that.

I feel ready to run, to be honest, to grab my girls & hit the road. I need a break, some space, some breathing room & a chance to clear my head. The last 4-5 years have been fucking nuts. The end of my marriage, the whole idiot saga, my divorce, Jeff, the issues in my house, moving several times, job changes, all of it.....I am exhausted. At the same time, I'm bursting with an urge to DO something. But what?

This weekend was actually nice. slept in some on Saturday , Jeff worked so me & the girls had some free time. We mostly vegged out,

Sunday we took a drive to River Parks & walked around, fed the ducks, but it was very crowded. Then we could hear drumming, we started looking for it & saw a 4 man band walking around, one wearing a gas mask, the other a 'sars' mask, one playing a bongo, another banging on a mailbox ((yes really!), one playing cans. It was bizarre, they marched all around the park, not saying a word. Turns out it was the band that was performing live at the little patio bar they have out there. Definitely got everyones attention.









Id have liked to stayed & had a drink or 2 & listened but Jeff didn't want to, neither did the girls. SO we wandered down to the kids park where Abi played awhile. Then we packed it up & went to Woodward park, beautiful pout there,















got some great shots of the girls & some floral shots too.










Also saw this little squirrel, he wasn't shy at all, practically posed for the camera!

Ive been at work over a year now. Still don't feel a lot different. funny how that is

Me & Jeff are approaching 2 year anniversary, just a few more days, wonder if he'll realize that?

By the way, I have a HUGE addiction to Sonic's Java Chillers. OMG, heaven in a cup.

Ducks & geese & trash , Oh my!

I went back to visit my ducks & geese friends today. As I walked out there, armed with a trash bag, a bag of lentils & a small satchel of ritual supplies, I felt the peace I had felt before returning almost instantly. The ducks & geese were there, as were a few visitors. 2 men sat talking up a ways from where my 'space' was. I just smiled 7 went on about my business. As I approached the birds started to move towards the water, until I tossed a handful of lentils t them. Quacks & honking & mass feeding ensued. So I sat down on the steps leading to the water & tossed a few more handfuls. Some of the mallards got braver & I eventually had them eating from my hand! beautiful birds, bright greens, blues & purples in their feathers & such orange webby feet. beautiful.

So I went on down to my place I sat before, on the rocks before the water, continuing to feed them. They seem to have accepted my presence as non harmful. :o)

After I had tossed all the feed I had, I pulled out my supplies, reaffirmed my pentagram I had traced in the sand earlier, drove a crystal in the center & buried a stone at the 4 cardinal points. I also burned some incense as I invited the elements to that location. As I called each one, I could feel the strength of those elements there with me. After I was done, i gathered as much trash as I could get in the bag & disposed of it properly. Never ceases to amaze me what nasty creatures humans can be, no thought at all how their littering ways can harm Earths creatures.

When i was done, I wrote in the sand, "Earth where we came from, Earth where we'll go, Welcome as you welcomed us long ago" My next trip out, I'm taking the girls for some more cleanup & feeding. Soon they ll recognize us all. I also hope to have that entire stretch cleaned up soon. I plan on warding the area, so no more littering will occur & also for the safety of the flock.

Wilkommen!

had a great time today! Me & my transplanted Okie man packed up the Okie girls & headed out to Oktoberfest. There was great German music, beer, dancing, chocolate covered everything, beer, rides, beer & of course, as goes with Oktoberfest, there was beer. Jeff, the Ice King, was our designated driver, & I could have done it too for the free pepsi(lol) but I left my ID at home. So no free pepsi or beer for me. Oh well, not fond of beer anyway.

The rides were quite overpriced & due to the shutting down of a few of them, I wasn't too sad about skipping them altogether. We saw all kinds of dancing, Kayla thinks she wants to learn German/Irish style dancing & Abi & I are thinking about belly-dancing lessons. What great fun that will be!

Winding down now to a quiet night, can't wait til next year!

Been Awhile

So I've been slacking. I haven't posted here in a bit. It's been pretty busy though. Haven't heard directly from BB yet, they're trying to get settled in down there. I spoke to Chris,BB's son with whom they're staying with . Seems they had a little bit of car trouble on the way down. Chris came to the rescue, as soon as he got there, the car started right up. LOL
As my ex-stepdad always says" it's not the car, it's the driver."
Anyways, BB's eldest daughter & her fiancee are working for Chris now doing roofing & apparently they love it. Hopefully, the $ will start rolling in for them & BB will find another job doing eldercare, like she was doing before. She had a great love & affinity for working with old folks.
Today, BB's youngest daughter came over, her & a friend & will stay for the weekend. Wonder how I can slave 'em while they're here? LOL
Me, Jeff & the girls are going to Oktoberfest tonight. Should be fun.I like looking at all the vendors, The girls will likely want to do the Chicken dance......Not sure there's enough beer there to make me do it. LMAO

GO VOTE

Get out there! Do your civic duty! It's your right! Get out & vote & show them what you think !

(Shuddering)

I almost died when I saw her with that snake! LOL

A few photos from my youngests' day @ the State Fair's Largest Classroom.

Fair deal?

We went ahead & attended the State fair today, however, we refused to ride any of the rides. With the number of accidents (at least 5) just in the past week & not to mention the forced removal of Bell's Amusement park, that is just staying on my boycott list.

We walked the livestock barns, went all thru the Expo center even tho it was hot as Hades), got rained on (a state fair tradition....), & ate some artery clogging fair food. There were several 'interesting' items I didnt dare try. Cheese on a stick & spam on a stick (fried, corn dipped spam -puke). We did do the obligatory corn dogs & funnel cakes. UGH, enough grease for a month or 2 there, but they were goooood. Something about the cool air, the smells , the sounds, that makes it all taste better. Last years fair was much better. Bell's was still there, we went at nightime & the midway just felt so different. I really mourn Bells being gone. it sucks.:(

On a different subject, I got a haircut Friday. Did something for myself for a change. Got it shortened some & layered up, it's really cute. Nice to pamper oneself every now & then. Maybe I'll get brave & post a photo later. LOL

On the homelife front, BB & her brood are still her. It's been rather tense of late, as I type, there are 10 people i this 4 bedroom house. It's crowded & 10 people eat more than 5, but all in all, I am glad they're spending this last bit of time here. I am really going to miss them.

photos of life in Tulsa

The river is beautful just the way it is...

A rose by any other name.....

Interesting Illusion

Downtown Image

monarch in Spring

Race for the Cure or Walking for Boobies.

So I raced for the cure today. Or to put it more accurately My fat butt walked for the cure.

Our company pays or this each year but I would do it anyway. I have 3 survivirs in my life so far. I probally know more, but they just arent vocal about it. The ice King's mother is a survivor, my stepson's aunt is a survivor & one of the ladies @ the office is a survivor. it's a great cause & It was a great time of fun, friends & knowing we were doing something great.

I'm willing to bet about 10,000 people were out there. it's only a small percentage of our population but an amazing turnout of friends, husbands, children, mothers, fathers, cousins & partners of those affected by this awful disease. I am thrilled to have been a part of it & can't wait to do it again next year. next year, Im doing the 5K.