I haven't been here much lately, there's just been too much going on. For those of you that have access, I'll give details over at ymy other blog. Just suffice to say it's been a bumpy ride & theres still plenty of roadblocks ahead. But theres light at the end of the tunnel. Things can & will get better, of that I am sure.
On the lighter side, going to a Samhain celebration tonight. I have a lot of things to let go of this year, & many to recieve into my life.
Last night was a normal family night, but I really enjoyed it. Only thing missing was my girlies. We all had dinner together, then sat down to watch a movie, haven't done that in some time. We watched WIld Hogs, it was hilarious, especially the ending. I loved it!
Me & thew Ice King kinda cuddled on the couch too, very nice. Woke up in a really good mood too.Hmm...wonder why?
So....Good Morning.
These quizzes are stupid, & useless, but nonetheless addictive.LOl
WRITE EXACTLY WHATS ON YOUR MIND, AND DON'T CHANGE IT!!!
1. Your recent 'ex' and You = I was soooo stupid!
2. I am listening to = Jeff snoring, fan humming & Delta farce on tv9badddd movie-lol)
3. Maybe I should = go to bed
4. I love = my girls
5. My best friend(s) = not sure i consider anyone that right now
6. I don't understand = MEN
7. I have lost my respect for = hmmmm
8. I last ate = subway Club sub
9. The meaning of my display name is= who I am
10. God = is dead
11. Someday = I'll get my shit together.lol
12. I will always be = loyal to my family
13. Love seems to = be a joke at times
14. I never ever want to lose = my girls
15. My myspace is = addictive
17. I get annoyed when = people assume they know what Im thinking
18. Parties = are annoying
20. Simple Kisses = can be nice
21. Today I = had a god time
22. I wish = I undecould fix others problems
IS YOUR/ARE YOU
01. is your hair wet?: yes
02. is your cell phone right by you: dont have one anymore & dont miss it
03. do you miss someone?: yes
04. are you wearing chap stick?: no
05. are you tired?: yeah
06. are you wearing pajamas?: yes
08. are you mad?: no
09. are you upset?: no
HAVE YOU
01. recently done anything you regret?: no
02. ever lied?: yes
03. ever stuck gum under a desk?: yes
04. ever kicked someone?: yes
05. ever tripped over your own feet?: yes
TODAY HAVE YOU:
01. have you cursed? yes
02. have you gotten mad at someone? no
-RANDOM-
Q: is there a person who is on your mind right now? yes
Q: do you have any siblings?: yes
Q: do you want children?: I have 2 of my own & 3 step
Q: do you smile often?: yenot often enough
Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?: no
Q: do you like your handwriting?: no
Q: are you a friendly person?: meh, sorta
Q: who's bed others than yours do you sleep in?: just mine
Q: what color shirt are you wearing: blue
Q: what were you doing at 7pm yesterday?: eating dinner
100 Random
Body: 2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? yes
3. Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room? yes
4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? yes
5. Do you like to use post-it notes? yes
6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? no
7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? bear
8. Do you always smile for pictures? rarely
9-11 ate themselves
hey no cannibalism is frowned upon by many societys please come back=]
12. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? no
13. Have you ever peed in the woods? yes
14. Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing? yes
15. Do you ever chew on your pens or pencils? yes
16. How many people have you slept with this week? just 1 :-)
17. Do you like popcorn from those big tins? yes
18. What is your "Song of the week" don't have one
19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? yes
20. Favorite Fish? tilapia
21. Whats your favorite scary movie? none really
22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? some place that no one would find it
23. What do you drink with dinner? tea
26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love it? Where the Heart is
27. Last person you kissed? Jeff
28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? no
29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? i wouldnt wanna scare anyone to death
30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone? awhile...
31. Can you change the oil on a car? no
32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? no
34. Kind of sandwich? pepperoni & cheese
35. Best thing to eat for breakfast? pepsi
36. What is your usual bedtime? whenever
37. Are you lazy? not really
38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? all sorts of things
40. How many languages can you speak? 1
41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? no
42. Which are better legos or lincoln logs? legos
43. Are you stubborn? yes
44. Who is better, Leno or Letterman? hate both
45. Ever watch soap operas? not anymore
46. Afraid of heights? not anymore
47. Sing in the car? yes
48. Dance in the shower? no
49. Dance in the car? no
50. Ever used a gun? yes!
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? quite awhile ago
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? not all of them
53. Is Christmas stressful? yes
54. Ever eat a pierogie? no
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? custard
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? teacher, trucker(lol), lawyer
57. Do you believe in ghosts? yes
60. Wear slippers? no
61. Wear a bath robe? at times
62. What do you wear to bed? tshirt & pajama pants
63. First concert? Motley Crue
64. Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart? Meijer
65. Nike or Adidas? neither
66. Cheetos or fritos? Fritos
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? honey roasted peanuts
68. Ever heard of, "gorp"? no
69. Ever take dance lessons? no
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? not really
71. Can you roll your tongue? yes
72. Ever won a spelling bee? yes
73. Ever cried because you were so happy? yes
74. Own any record albums? not anymore
75. Own a record player? not anymore
76. Regularly burn incense? yes
77. Ever eaten fish? yes
78. Who would you like to see in concert? Ozzy again
80. Hot tea or cold tea? both
81. Tea or coffee? tea
82. Favorite kind of cookie? sugar cookie
83.Can you swim well? yes
84.Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose? yes
85. Are you patient? sorta
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? dj
87. Ever won a contest? yes
88. Ever have plastic surgery? no
89. Which are better black or green olives? yuk
90. Can you knit or crochet? no
91. Best room for a fireplace? livingroom
92. Do you want to get married? i am engaged to be
93. If married, how long have you been married?
94. Who's your crush? noone
95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? no
96. Do you have kids? 2, 3 steps
97. Do you want kids? just the ones i have
98. Whats your favorite color? black
99. Do you miss anyone right now? yes
100. Who do you wanna see right now? would love to see my sis
P.s did you know number one is missing.
Debbl-ology
FOOD-OLOGY
Q. What is your salad dressing of choice? ranch
Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Taco Bueno
Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Ricardo's
Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? 10-20%
Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? mexican
Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice? pepperoni & extra cheese
Q. What do you like to put on your toast? butter
Q. What is your favorite type of gum? wrigleys, juicy fruit
TECHNOLOGY
Q. Number of contacts in your cell phone? none
Q. Number of contacts in your email address book? lots
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer? 2 beautiful girls.:-)
Q. How many televisions are in your house or apartment? 5
BIOLOGY
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed? right
Q. Do you like your smile? no
Q. What's your best feature? eyes
Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? yes,
Q. Which of your five senses do you think is keenest? my 6th sense
Q. When was the last time you had a cavity? have one right now.Ow
Q. What is the heaviest item you lifted last? my daughter
Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? no
CRAPOLOGY
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? no
Q. Is love for real? yes
Q. If you could change your first name, what would you change it to? I'd keep my name
Q. What color do you think looks best on you? dark colors
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? yes
Q. Have you ever saved someones life? yes
Q. Has someone ever saved yours? yes
DAREOLOGY
Q. Would you walk naked for a half mile down a public street for $100,000? only if I can pick the town and street
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100? sure
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? don't think so
Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000? yes
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000? yes, but people ould be terrified
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1,000? yes
Q. Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000? sure
LASTOLOGY
Q: Friend you talked to? Courtney
Q: Last person you called? Jeff
Q: Last person that called you? Jerry
Q: Person you hugged? Abigail
FAVORITOLOGY
Q: Number? 7
Q: Color? black
Q: Season? fall
CURRENTOLOGY
Q: Missing someone? yes
Q: Mood? sleepy
Q: Listening to? Delta Farce
Q: Watching? not paying attention
Q: Worrying about? bills
RANDOMOLOGY
Q: First place you went this morning? bathroom
Q: What can you not wait to do? go to bed
Q: What's the last movie you saw? Wild Hogs
Q: Do you smile often? no
Q: Are you a friendly person? sorta
Q: What is in your left pocket? no pockets
Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie? sux
Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house? carpet
Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower? stand
Q: Could you live with roommates? yes
Q: How many pairs of flip-flops do you own? a few
Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops? 4 years ago
Q: What do you want to be when you grow up? alive
12 months out of the year
Body: JANUARY
1. Who kissed you on new years? Jeff
2. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? no
3. Does it snow where you live? sometimes
4. Do you like hot chocolate? yes
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop? no
FEBRUARY
1. Who was your Valentine? Jeff
2. When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class? yes
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not? no
MARCH
1. Are you Irish? yes
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? yes
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2007? worked
4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over? yes
APRIL
1. Do you like the rain? yes
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? nah
3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter? the kids do, so i guess i do too
4. Do you celebrate 4/20? shhhhhh
5. Do you love the month of April? yes
MAY
1. What is your favorite flower? ones jeff & girls bring to me
2. Do you like the spring? yes
3. Finish the phrase "April showers": will bring may flowers
4. Do you celebrate May 16th: National Piercing Day? no
5. Is there anything special about May to you? no
JUNE
1. What year did/will you graduate from high school? 1989
2. Are you doing anything fun during this month? Boo Ha ha saturday & Samhain & Halloween celebrations
3. Have a favorite baseball team? Tigers
JULY
1. What will you do on the Fourth of July? not sure..
2. Are you going on any vacations during this month? no
3. Do you blast the A/C all day? no
AUGUST
1. Are you doing anything special at the end of your summer? no
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '06? being proposed to
3. Did you have a sunburn? no
4. Did you go to the beach a lot? no
SEPTEMBER
1. Will you be attending college/school? no
2. Who was your favorite teacher? mrs richardson
3. Do you like fall better than summer? yes
OCTOBER
1. What was your last Halloween costume? i was a witch (go figure)
2. What is your favorite candy? hershey dark chocolate
3. Who's birthday is during this month? noone
NOVEMBER
1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgiving? mine
2. Did you know GoofyAuctions.com was started this month in 2005? dont care
3. What are you thankful for? my family, friends
4. Do you love stuffing? yes
DECEMBER
1. Do you celebrate Christmas? yes
2. What is December 1st, 2007? 1st day of december
3. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe? yes
4. Get anything special last year? nothing in particular
5. What do you want this year? i don't know
6. Do you like cold weather? no
55 Random questions!
Body: Well here are 55 I guarantee you've never answered.
1. Describe your ex in one word...... no comment
2. Do you have a favorite type of pen? black gel pen
3. Look at your planner for April 14? Lanette's B-day
4. What does the 4th text in your inbox say? none
5. What was the last thing you highlighted? some shit at work
6. What color are your bedroom curtains? none at the moment
7. What color are the seats in your car? Pooh covers
8. Have you ever had a black and white cat? yes
9. What is the last thing you put a stamp on? checks sent out at work
10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming? no
11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time? I don't withdraw from the atm.. I go thr drive thru
12. Who was the last baby you held? one of my old daycare babies, eons ago it seems
13. Do you know of any twins with rhyming names? no
14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste? sure
15. What kind of Car were you driving 2 years ago? my 93 dodge caravan
16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators? neither
17. Last time you went to Six Flags? about 20 years ago...
18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house? no
19. Closest thing to you that is yellow? envelope
20. Last person to give you a business card? Kami @ First American
21. Who is the last person you wrote a check to? 250,000. payoff check @ work to Chase Bank
22. Closest framed picture to you? girls
23. Last time you had someone cook for you?? last night
24. What was it? dinner
25. How many emails do you have? . too many, over 1000
26. Last time you received flowers? Jeff brought me roses awhile back
27. Do you think the sanctity of marriage is meant for only a man & woman? no
28. Do you play air guitar? no
29. Has anyone ever proposed to you? yes
30. Do you take anything in your coffee? dont do coffee
31. Do you have any willow tree figurines? no
32. What was your high school's rival mascot? chargers
33. Last person you spoke to from high school? Lee
34. Last time you used hand sanitizer? while ago, dries out my hands
35. Would you like to learn to play the drums? no
36. What color are the blinds in your living room? white
37. What is in your inbox at work. probably e mails from lawyers office for title work
38. Last thing you read in the newspaper? something about a crime
39. What was the last pageant you attended? i have no clue
40. What is the last place you bought pizza from? mazzios
41. Have you ever worn a crown? yes
42. What is the last thing you stapled? some documents at work
43. Did you ever drink clear Pepsi? hehe... yes i did
44. Are you ticklish? i can turn it on and off
45. Last time you saw fireworks? 4th of july
46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut? it's been awhile
47. Who is the last person that left you a message? Jeff
48. Last time you parked under a carport? dunno
49. Do you have a black dog? no
50. Do you have pickles in your fridge? yes
51. Are you an aunt or uncle? yes.. aunt
52. Who has the nicest eyes that you know? my daughter
53. Last time you saw a semi truck? todayy
54. Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe? not really
55. Do you have a "notice me" part on your body?my eyes
105 questions
Body: 1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING? yes
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? 141 years
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? Lunch!
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? yes
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT? need to go again
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON? bills
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE? sub
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? voice
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG? Im moving on
10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE? In my house
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: Memorial
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: none
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE: hate mall
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD: daycare provider-9 years
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE? yes
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: no
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED: cant remember their names
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: Jeff or Mom
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: dont remember
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: Bueno
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: I don't know
23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS? At home
24. CAN YOU COOK? Yes
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?: 99 Kia
26. BEST KISSER: Jeff
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: other day
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS: onions
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: my eyes
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: stomach
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?: 24 hours... I"m a mom!
33. FAVORITE MOVIE? dunno
34. CAN YOU SING? yes
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED? Toby keith
36. LAST KISS? this morning
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: Delta farce
38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT: my keys
39. FAVORITE vacation spot: Michigan
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:17 desktops, 5 laptops.........
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?: Ron White
45. DO YOU SMOKE? no
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES? with
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?: Jeff
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?: rarely
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE? 3
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST? both
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?: no
52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? Sunny side up with toast
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: yes
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: Chris
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?: not sure
56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?: I don't remember
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?: 7
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: tshirt
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC: Pour some sugar on me
61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:plum
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?: yes
63. CAN YOU SWIM? yes
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?: chocolate
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS? yes
66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: I have prophetic dreams
68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?: yes
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON: fall
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?: today
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ? 6:20
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?: snow
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?: 2005
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?: Gretchen
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?: dunno
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND? Shawna's Boo Ha Ha & maybe a picnic
78. BIRTHDATE 2/10
79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE: alive
85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?: no
87. ARE YOU SMILING?: no
89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW? yes
90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO? away
92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?: no
93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: no
94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME? don't have one
96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?: no
97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?: no
99. do you have a sister? yes
100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?: no
101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?: yes
102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL? yes
103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW? yes
104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING? engagement ring & celtic knot ring
105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY? go to bed
http://thediaperdiaries.wordpress.com/
I grabbed this from over at Diaper Diaries . I thought it was fun and if you would like to join in, try it out!
1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car) Tiger Kia
2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie) Chopcolate Sugar
3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name), D-and
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) black Cat
5 YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) Kaye Portsmouth
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)Deban
7. SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink) blue soda?
8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers) jack Murl
9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy) Patchouli Peppermint
10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names ) Edna Dale
11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter) Richardson Raleigh
12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower) Fall Carnation
13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”) Apple Shirt
14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree) Soda Oak
15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + “Tour”),
Bellydancing Autumn Tour
1. Do you like cheese? uh huh
2. Have you ever been arrested? um yes, once for shoplifting when I was 16
3. Have you ever shot a gun? YES
4. Your favorite song? .My Immortal
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? not really
6. What do you think of when you eat hot dogs? am I supposed to?
7. What's your favorite Christmas song? ocking around the Xmas tREE
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? something highly caffeinated
9. Can you do push ups? if i want to
10. Is your bathroom clean? . sorta, towel in floor, needs swept
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? my engagement ring
12. Favorite Hobby? photography
13. What are you listening to right now? Loreena Mckennitt Celtic Moods
14. What is the last thing you ate? bowl of cereal
15. What one trait do you hate about yourself? procrastination
16. Middle Name? kaye
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? i need to go to bed, my eye hurts, Im cold
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought. gas, pepsi, & more pepsi
20. Current worry right now? that thing w/ the DA......
21. Current hate? alcohol
22. Favorite place to be? asleep
23. How did you bring in the New Year? slept
24. What is your quirkiest habit? i have this weird thing about texture....oh never mind..........
25. Name three people who will complete this and return? no F'in clue
26. How many siblings do you have? 1
27. Do you own slippers? yep but rarely wear em
28. What shirt are you wearing? big blue comfy tee
29. What shampoo do you use? whatevers in the shower
30. Favorite colors? black & blue!
31. Would you like to be a pirate? the whole on the ship thing doesnt appeal to me
32. What songs do you sing in the shower? i dont sing
33. Favorite female name? Rhiannon
34. Favorite male name? Calen
35. What's in your pockets right now? I dont havve pockets
36. Last thing that made you laugh? my friend Courtney
37. Best bed sheets as a child? funky 70's striped ones
38. Worst injury you've ever had? fractured my forearm
39. When's your birthday? February
40. How many TVs do you have in your house? 5
41. Who is your loudest friend? loud? Id say Heather
43. Does someone have a crush on you? no idea, dont care
44. Do you wish on shooting stars? sometimes
45.What is your favorite book? Zoya
46.What is your favorite age? not old
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? dunno
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? dont want a funeral
49. What were you doing at 12 am this morning? im still doing it
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? FUck! Already?
Feeling icky & kind of queasy this morning, well....it's almost afternoon. Feeling very edgy & apprehensive, like something is about to happen. I have an acute awareness of
Feeling kind of moody & brooding today. Can't help but find myself wondering..."Is this all there is?"
"Is there something I could have done? Or should have done?"
"How different would my life be?"
"What if.....?"
I should be happy with what I have & be grateful for the things I have in my life. My 2 beautiful girls, 3 great boys, Jeff, my Mother, my sister & her children, & the friends that surround me, but there's that nagging voice at the back of my mind ......."Somethings missing..."
Something that makes me wonder if this is how I want to live the rest of my life. Can I be happy this way? or am I going to be forced to make changes for real happiness?
I don't like when I get like this. I start to question my very existence. & then I get restless, wanting to grab the girls & run away somewhere. I won't though......change scares the hell out of me.
Four Jobs I’ve Held
1. Home daycare provider
2. 2 year old teacher in a daycare
3. Call Center
4. Title Insurance Clerk
Four Films I Could Watch Over and Over
1. Baseketball
2. The Stand
3. Where the Heart is
4. The Cell
Four TV Shows I Watch
1. Extreme makeover:Home Edition
2. Holmes on Homes
3.Law & Order-any of them
4.Ummm.....no idea
Four Places I’ve Lived
1. Tulsa, Ok
2. Catoosa, OK
3. Arvada, Co
4. Portsmouth, Va
Four Favorite Foods
1. my moms enchiladas
2. moms spicy mexican chicken chile soup
3. custard pie
4. pumpkin pie
Four Websites I Visit Daily
1. Redneck Diva
2. Voices of Tulsa
3. KTUL
4. MeeCiteeWurkor
Four Favorite Colors
1. blue
2. Black
3. greenish blue
4. white
Four Places I Would Love to be Right Now
1. In bed
2. in another life
3.xanth
4. in the past
Four Names You Love, But Could/Would Not Use for Your Children
1. Calen
2. Rhiannon
3. Kanin
4. ???
Four People I Tag
I'm not tagging anyone.
So I've been slacking. I haven't posted here in a bit. It's been pretty busy though. Haven't heard directly from BB yet, they're trying to get settled in down there. I spoke to Chris,BB's son with whom they're staying with . Seems they had a little bit of car trouble on the way down. Chris came to the rescue, as soon as he got there, the car started right up. LOL
As my ex-stepdad always says" it's not the car, it's the driver."
Anyways, BB's eldest daughter & her fiancee are working for Chris now doing roofing & apparently they love it. Hopefully, the $ will start rolling in for them & BB will find another job doing eldercare, like she was doing before. She had a great love & affinity for working with old folks.
Today, BB's youngest daughter came over, her & a friend & will stay for the weekend. Wonder how I can slave 'em while they're here? LOL
Me, Jeff & the girls are going to Oktoberfest tonight. Should be fun.I like looking at all the vendors, The girls will likely want to do the Chicken dance......Not sure there's enough beer there to make me do it. LMAO
BB left this morning. At 7:20, they pulled out of the driveway & headed for Galveston. I knew it was really going to happen, but now it's real. The last few weeks have been very interesting. I think we all learned a lot about each other & about ourselves. I'm weepy today. This liquid substance keeps coming out of my eyes, but I know those aren't tears. Nuh-uh. No way. I don't cry....At least, not where anyone can see me. Maybe just those silent hiccupy cries where your eyes turn red but your nose doesn't puff up.
But I digress................
I am going to be a bit on edge until I hear from them. It's about a 9 hour drive so I figure it will be well after I get home from work. I just pray all goes well & uneventful, but I hope it's one of those road trips where you discover things about yourselves. Driving alone, for a lot of people, is empowering. I know she's not alone, but she's the lone adult. The kids might be both 18, but they're still kids.
Anyways, blessings to you all & I hope you find what your life has been missing.
Busy weekend! This was BB's last weekend here. So as a last ditch effort, she agreed to spend some time helping out at my house. We switched rooms with mom & My oldest Okie girl, giving Mom a bit more room in the way the room is shaped, we also drug everything out of her room & painted it the prettiest aqua color. Then if that wasnt insane enough, we proceeded to paint my little Okie girl's room too. A pretty pale pink. Both girls were absolutely thrilled.Nisey's poor cat was utterly confused though.lol If my mom had known she slept on her pillow with her.........
It was also a weekend of realizations for me. I realized what is truly important to me & what Im willing to sacrifice for happiness. I also came to the realization of just what I will tolerate & where my breaking point is whjen it comes to relationships. I learned a lot about myself this weekend.
On the downside, BB leaves bright & early tomorrow for Galveston. Im sad. :-(
Very sad. The last few weeks shes been here have been a lot of fun at times, like staying up late watching scary movies, late night snacks, or just general working around the house.
I wont get to do it again & that makes me sad.
With all the stir about the many products from China that have been recalled, I'd like to do a little digging as to the cause of all this. Many would jump to say the Chinese are at fault for producing inferior products. Well, to an extent, yes.
Others would say those large company's are at fault for outsourcing & paying low wages to the Chinese workers. Yes, partly.
How about we lie the blame where it truly belongs? Square on the shoulders of the American public. The public who whines & complains prices are too high, the public who demands lower prices. You know the old saying, "You get what you pay for."
Something worth having, is worth paying for.
Certainly the large dollar whore companies are to blame as well. They sell their manufacturing to the very lowest bidder but expect them to produce a top notch product. They also seem to make a practice of not overseeing the production of their products & blindly send them on to the public.
As well, the manufacturers are to blame for bidding such low amounts, I place very little blame here. Many standards overseas are not as stringent as they are in the U.S. Also, the living wage over there is abysmal. Honestly, I would probally cut corners myself.
Opinions?
Thoughts?
It was an interesting weekend...............Let's tally up all the itnteresting things:
1) bandaged a cat's ass
2) argused amongst ourselves
3) laughed so hard I cried
4) re-bandaged a cat's ass
5) watched my sister bandage a cat's ass
6) watched my mother trum us all at bandaging the cat's ass
7) had a decent time at the State Fair
8) wormed a cat (different cat!)
9) didn't get enough sleep
10) organized & cleaned house
11) did an obscene amount of laundry
OK, the bandaged ass cat, has gotten into some S&M shit & likes to chew on herself, we got a new kitten back in May, said kitten introduced fleas to our previously flea free other 4 cats.2 of them decided to have a flea allergy, both are looking kind of sad at the moment. The little female kitty, Angel, kept biting & chewing her hindquarters & refused to stop, wed medicate & medicate, they'd almost heal. Chew. Chew. Chew. Start it all over again. Even the vet was at wit's end. So we got the idea the other night , bandaged her butt & tied it off with an ace bandage. Looks like she's almost diapered.lol, but so far seems to be working.
The other cat dropped some weight & his coat looks dull, so hoping worming will do the trick for him & he'll perk back up.
Being there were 10 people in my house at any given moment over this weekend, bickering was bound to happen. 10 people & 5 cats.....you take your pick, we all probally argued at some point & time. Alls well that ends well though. BB's youngest daughter & her fiancee are back at Job Corps & today BB & the 2 older ones went off for some day labor to make a little extra cash before their move.
I can't say how much I have enjoyed them all being there though. Probally bad timing, probally too cramped, but it's nice to get some extra time with them before they're far, far, away. I do have to say sleeping arrangements have been like stacking up cordwood.lol
All in all, a fairly good weekend.
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