Workblogging part 1564132156456132154561

Oh my! I am just stuffed. Someone from one of the private mortgage insurance companies brought the entire office lunch from Johnny Carino's. Yummmmmmmmmmmm
Can't beat free food & good free food at that!
Today will have to be my diet free day. lol
I'll have to be good the rest of the week & depending on the weather, Ill get my ass out on the bike too. Do plan on walking though.
Talked to BB last night, she's been quite sick, completely lost her vopice, she's finally on the up end of it. They're all moved into her own apt now. IM so happy for her. She got a decent job at a hotel, rebuilding her life in paradise, just across the street from the Gulf of Mexico. Awesome view there. It's been pretty quiet lately, at least since our last counseling thing. That was.....well...it was. How about icky?
Can I say it was icky?
Anyhoo, things are quiet now, the OKie girls are doing better in school, the rooms are cleaner, dont know what else to add. lol

A bit of fun

Saw this over here at my fave hangout.
OOOh, fun-ness!
Here's what you do - go to your music player, hit shuffle each time you ask yourself one of the following questions. The first song that plays is the answer. No cheating! It's hilarious!!

How does the world see me?
Song: Nookie
Artist: Limp Bizkit
Comments: Hmmm, dont know what to say about that

Will I have a happy life?
Song: Have you ever Seen the rain?
Artist: CCR
Comments: that doesnt sound too promising.......

What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Sittin in a bar
Artist: Rehab
Comments: Hell, id love to sit on a bar. LOL

Do people secretly lust after me?
Song: Love me when Im gone
Artist: 3 Doors Down
Comments: ick, necrophilia?

How can I make myself happy?
Song: Its the Simple Things
Artist: kenny Chesney
Comments: ahhhh, so true

What should I do with my life?
Song: In my daughters Eyes
Artist: martina Mcbride
Comments: Cant think of anything better

Why should life be full of so much pain?
Song: if tomorrow never Comes
Artist: Garth brooks
Comments: guess it would be full of pain then huh?

How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
Song: Go Rest High on that mountain
Artist: Vince Gill
Comments: hmmm....mile high club?

What is some good advice for me?
Song: Dead Can Dance
Artist: Loreena mckennitt
Comments: damn necrophilia shit again

What is happiness?
Song: Walk this Way
Artist: Aerosmith
Comments: this way?
what way?

What is my favourite fetish?
Song: Against the Wind
Artist: Bob Seger
Comments: doing it outdoors huh?

How will I be remembered?
Song: Wasted years
Artist: iron mountain
Comments: HAHAHA, no comment

Memorials & all that jazz

Yesterday, me & the girls went to Mike Chittom's Memorial service. It was beautiful. held at First United methodist church in downtown. What a gorgeous building. Huge stone arches, carved wood altar & pulpit, beaitiful stained glass art. They had a singer performing Amazing Grace, his voice sent chills down my spine. His sister did a very moving eulogy & they showed a film, featuring him & the Celia Clinton kids, wonderful.:o)
At the end however , was the best part, his band performed Dixieland jazz rendition of 'A Closer Walk with thee."
I cant think of a better way to send him out!

Deeply Saddened

I am very saddened to find out today that a dear wonderful man that meant a lot to my children & many many more has passed away.
http://www.tulsaworld.com/news/article.aspx?articleID=20080122_1_A17_spanc76588
Mike Chittom was a father figure to many, a driving force in Celia Clinton Elementary & spent so much time & effort elping children that might not otherwise have had anyone to help them. Blessings to you Mr. Chittom & i shall light a candle for you to light your way.

Yayyyyyyyyyy it's back up!

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy its up & running! Yayyyyyyyyyy, after way too long of being dow, Pagan World is up & running & better than ever before!
Check it out!
http://www.pagan-world.com

Also, jeff has his site up & going & reistered as a business.

Check out

http://www.tulsatech.net

By Goddess, I must be insane!

So last week my daughter turned 13, today is her sleepover party. She had 4 friends over, 3 showed up. How in the hell can 4 little girls sound like 40?

Oh. My. GODDESS!. They are so loud. Sooo hyper...

I cant remember being like this at their age. My mom just looked at me really strange when I asked her about it. LOL

Theyre in there playing online right now, plans later to stay up & play on the Xbox, gamecube or PS2, whatever. They had personal pizzas, cale ice cream & pop. Hmmmm.....lots of sugar there. oh shit.

Her previously clean room is trashed. She'll have fun cleaning that up!

So I must be crazy right?

Fun Shit

Ok, so I swiped this from OVER HERE.

Looks like fun.

Go here. The first article title on the page is the name of your band.

Go here. The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.

Go here. The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

Here's what I got:

Now, how many times did you try it?

LOL

Ducks & geese & trash , Oh my!

I went back to visit my ducks & geese friends today. As I walked out there, armed with a trash bag, a bag of lentils & a small satchel of ritual supplies, I felt the peace I had felt before returning almost instantly. The ducks & geese were there, as were a few visitors. 2 men sat talking up a ways from where my 'space' was. I just smiled 7 went on about my business. As I approached the birds started to move towards the water, until I tossed a handful of lentils t them. Quacks & honking & mass feeding ensued. So I sat down on the steps leading to the water & tossed a few more handfuls. Some of the mallards got braver & I eventually had them eating from my hand! beautiful birds, bright greens, blues & purples in their feathers & such orange webby feet. beautiful.

So I went on down to my place I sat before, on the rocks before the water, continuing to feed them. They seem to have accepted my presence as non harmful. :o)

After I had tossed all the feed I had, I pulled out my supplies, reaffirmed my pentagram I had traced in the sand earlier, drove a crystal in the center & buried a stone at the 4 cardinal points. I also burned some incense as I invited the elements to that location. As I called each one, I could feel the strength of those elements there with me. After I was done, i gathered as much trash as I could get in the bag & disposed of it properly. Never ceases to amaze me what nasty creatures humans can be, no thought at all how their littering ways can harm Earths creatures.

When i was done, I wrote in the sand, "Earth where we came from, Earth where we'll go, Welcome as you welcomed us long ago" My next trip out, I'm taking the girls for some more cleanup & feeding. Soon they ll recognize us all. I also hope to have that entire stretch cleaned up soon. I plan on warding the area, so no more littering will occur & also for the safety of the flock.

Happy Birthday baby!

My baby is a teenager today. Me...parent to a teenager!

I cant believe how big & beautiful she has grown in 13 short years. She is long & tall & full of wisdom beyond her years. She is a true treasure. She still lets me hug her & kiss her goodnight & still likes to be tucked in at bedtime. She tells me things lots of kids her age dont tell their mothers. I adore her. She is a true joy as a daughter. I couldnt ask for a better child, friend.

I love you Nisey!

Peace & geese

Got off a bit early today after leaving the courthouse, so I took the time to go down to the river for a bit, needed some time to ground some energy & just relax a bit.

I go down to a nice little area near 21st street where you can get right down to the water. There was a nice place to sit & watch the water go by. Theres also a small beack, or riverbank actually. But its sandy(muddy) & some large rocks there. it is also occupied by about 50-60 Canadian geese & Mallard ducks. beautiful creatures. I sat there a long time watching them swim & play & chase each other. I felt my stresses slipping away & my sadness that i had been feeling floating away as well. I wandered down to the riverbank beach & sat on a large rock, my feet about 2 or 3 feet from the water lapping at the edges. The geese never flew away or acted scared. I talked to them softly. I also drew a large banishing pentacle in the sand to ward off all neativity from the area so they can keep living there in peace. Theres a nice flat area that would be wonderful for doing spelwork & its fairly secluded but accessible. I think I found my nature spot. I will be going back. Next time Ill go armed with trash bags to clean up some of the litter I saw in the area, I'll also take food for the geese & ducks as an offering. May take some things & do spellwork as well.

it was so peaceful there. perfect spot. I could feel all the elements there. I felt the sun shining down warm on me, the wind blowing thru my hair, the water lapping at my feet & the sandy earth beneath my toes. I also found spirit. Spirit in those beautiful birds.

Up all night.....up all day?

YAWNnnnnnnnnnnnn......Here it is, almost 12:30 & Im wide awake while Ice King snoozes happily away just a mere few feet from me. UGH
NOT fair!
I swear, he can go to fully conscious to dead on snoring in .2 seconds!
The Okie girls are both doing much better, the job stuation still hasnt changed, no decision on what to do. The diet is going fairly good. Im down 2 lbs. Not much but a start. Mostly just watching what i eat & parking further away @ work. Also trying to do yard work for exercise. I may break out one of my DVD's. lol
After I get paid, Im calling the Belly dance place. me....belly dancing....imagine that.lol
Night all

Agonizing

I am torn over a dilemma I am facing. I am currently working at a great mortgage company, I have good friends there, I like what I do, I have room to grow & the money is ok. It could be better, but hey, Ive only been there 8 months.

Today another friend told me they would soon be hiring for a payroll position @ her company. It pays 18. an hour. The benefits are near the same, i might even be able to afford freaking insurance. I need it so bad right now but I cant afford 100. a check at this point & its not 'great' insurance.ok, anyway......I already have a friend at this other place & shed be one of the ones interviewing me, I know how to do 85% of what Id be doing, so easy to pick up.

I have a HUGE loyalty issue. My current job was obtained mostly due to urging from the friend there. I feel like I owe her a lot. & I LOVE it there. The people are great, ok, so mI dont truly feel like I fit in w/ others outside out office but thats ok, I adore the 3 I work closely with.

I have no clue what to do.

Happy new year?

I sure hope so. While this year has had it's many ups & blessings, its also had lots of struggle & heartache. I want to see it only get better.
I guess its also time to dig out the New years Resolutions....sigh........
Ok, here we go.
1. I'm going to be working on the 2 books I have chosen, they have some day by day things to do.
2. Taking up the belly dancing class.
3. Finding & joining a kickboxing class
4. Dusting off the bike & putting it to use.
5. purge, clean & organize the whole house
6. My weight goal by December is 150. still too much but muscle will be heavier than fat. :-)