Damn blanket! or Workblogging edition #89746787789984899

So it's Monday. UH huh, it sure is. Looks like Monday (gray & gloomy), smells like Monday (coffee & rain) & sounds like Monday (yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn), well hell, guess it is then. Here I was, hoping for another day of rest.
I had a question for a christian friend of mine the other day & the answer he gave me, well.....wasn't what I was looking for. Christians, most anyway , seem to think 'satan' causes them to do evil. But when they die, theyre supposed to go to hell & be punished. OK, so if satan causes you to 'sin', why would he punish you for doing it?
Seems like theres a big ol party goin on down there, by way of that reasoning.
My way of thinking? A part of me wants t believe in reincarnation, another thinks, when youre dead. Youre D.E.A.D. Thats the end of it. Kind of like the way I feel this morning. Bleh. Just....bleh.
Sleep seems elusive, a hundred million things going on in my head & wont let me sleep, why cant i just tell those ashsoles to STFU, already?Eyes are barely staying open here, keep closing, I swear, I can hear that damn red fuzzy blankie calling me from home. (velvety whispery tones) "Curl up under me.....wrap me around you....let me caress you in my fuzzy warm goodness....."
UIRGGGGGGGGGG SHhhhhhhhhhh.
"Blanket", I say (cuz I talk to it in my head, I'm just cool like that)
"You need to be quiet. Its hard to get work done with you talking"
Mmmmmmmmmm, Im all soft & warm..."
"BE quiet blanket!"
"love me...............cuddle with me.........."
"LALALALALALALA I can't hear you!"(fingers in ears)
Finally I shut that bitch up, by closing my eyes, ACK! I can hear it in my sleep deprived dreams!

101 things in a 1001 days

101 things in a 1001 days

The object is to make 101 realistic goals you can accomplish in 1001 days,, which equals out to about 2.7 years.

Then track your goals as you accomplish them

1 achieve goal weight

2 jog 3 miles 3 x a week

3spend more time wih the girls

4 take each girl out 1x a month

5go see a movie i really like, by myself

6start kickboxing again

7 take bellydancing classes

8get a manicure

9get a pedicure

10get health insurance

11grow the flowers i planted & keep them alive

12clean up an area 1x a month

13go bike riding 2x a month

14celebrate every full moon & sabbat for a year

15connect on a more personal level with each of my friends

16make a road trip to Courtneys

17road trip to Jans

18Drink more water
19Eat less junk food
20Walk more often
21Go one week without drinking soda
22Brush and floss every day for 30 days straight
. 23Write 10 poems
24Attempt a painting of some kind
25. Do a "day in the life" with photos
26 Make a list of things that make me happy
27. Take more pictures for picture frame
28. Declutter everything

29. Send a secret to PostSecret
30 keep better contact with my friends
31gey my BOS up to date

32volunteer my time cleaning the river

33write to dad mor eoften

34buy a house

35buy a new car

36get a promotion to closer @ work

37fly a kite

38woolaroc museum

39okc bombing memorial

40make most of my gifts for yule

41concealed carry permit

42redo DD site

43be more diligent with PW site

44 Compose a “If something dire ever happens to me” letter and give it to a family member

45Write a letter to each family member telling them why I love them

46sit on the porch just watching the day with the girls

47draw on the driveway with chalk with the kids

48make flower chains with Abigail

49take Kayla to anime convention

50go camping

51start a compost pile

52gro my nails

53get all my photos in a scrapbook or frames

54Attend one of those pottery classes/days with the kids

55take mom to the casion101 things in 1001 days
The object is to make 101 realistic goals you can accomplish in 1001 days,, which equals out to about 2.7 years.
Then track your goals as you accomplish them
1 achieve goal weight
2 walk 3 miles 3 x a week
3 spend more time with the girls
4 take each girl out 1x a month
5 go see a movie I really like, by myself
6 start kickboxing again
7 take bellydancing classes
8 get a manicure
9 get a pedicure
10 get health insurance
11 grow the flowers I planted & keep them alive
12 clean up an area 1x a month
13 go bike riding 2x a month
14 celebrate every full moon & sabbat for a year
15 connect on a more personal level with each of my friends
16 make a road trip to Courtney’s
xxxx17 road trip to Jan’s
18 Drink more water

19 Eat less junk food

20 Walk more often

21 Go one week without drinking soda

22 Brush and floss every day for 30 days straight

23 Write 10 poems

24 Attempt a painting of some kind

25. Do a "day in the life" with photos

26 Make a list of things that make me happy

xxxx27. Take more pictures for picture frame

28. Declutter everything
xxxx29. Send a secret to PostSecret

30 keep better contact with my friends

31 get my BOS up to date
32 volunteer my time cleaning the river
33 write to dad more often
34 buy a house
xxxx35 buy a new car
36 get a promotion to closer @ work
37 fly a kite
38 woolaroc museum
39 okc bombing memorial
40 make most of my gifts for Yule
41 concealed carry permit
42 redo DD site
43 be more diligent with PW site
44 Compose a “If something dire ever happens to me” letter and give it to a family member
45 Write a letter to each family member telling them why I love them
46 sit on the porch just watching the day with the girls
47 draw on the driveway with chalk with the kids
48 make flower chains with Abigail
xxxx49 take Kayla to anime convention
50 go camping
51 start a compost pile
52 grow my nails
53 get all my photos in a scrapbook or frames
54 Attend one of those pottery classes/days with the kids
55 take mom to the casino
56 Take pictures of my children EVERY WEEK and document how much they change.
57 Start a spiritual journal.
58 Take my vitamins every day for three weeks.
59 meditate daily for a month
60 have a girl’s night out once a month
xxxx61 get more sleep
62 get a real massage
63 renew my CPR
64 start selling on eBay again
65 Clean my house thoroughly once a month for a year.
66 Start selling crafts on the side.
67 lead full moon circle by myself
68 ride bike 1x a week for 2 months
69 get shed organized
70 get attic organized
xxxx71 redo Kayla’s room
xxxx72 redo Abi’s room
73 redo our room
74 paint inside of house
75 redo liv room floors
76 attend 20 year reunion
77 wax
78 brush the cats 3x a week for a month
79 vacuum daily
80 finish house list
81 set up 4 directions in back yard
xxxxx82 get new camera
83 sing karaoke
84 go to gym 1x a week
85 do tae bo 1x a week
86 take girls roller skating
87 get dental work done
88 jog 3 miles 3 x a week
89 go to museum alone-philbrook
90 get up at 7 am on Saturdays for 1 month
91 buy a lottery ticket per month
92 play board game w/ girl’s 1x a month
93 find a place to shoot gun
94 take girls to Lake Tenkiller
95 Fast for 24 hours
96 Moisturize every morning and evening for a month
97 read a book while lying in the park
98 Climb a tree
99 go swing 1x a week for a month
100 get tattooed
101 join a class at the gym

Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian

OK, first I must say, IM not trying to offend my Christian friends. For those of you, I have the utmost respect, You are capable of knowing the difference between a true Christian & those in name only.

Top Ten Signs You're a Fundamentalist Christian

10 - You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of yours.

9 - You feel insulted and "dehumanized" when scientists say that people evolved from other life forms, but you have no problem with the Biblical claim that we were created from dirt.

8 - You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believing in a Triune God.

7 - Your face turns purple when you hear of the "atrocities" attributed to Allah, but you don't even flinch when hearing about how God/Jehovah slaughtered all the babies of Egypt in "Exodus" and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in "Joshua" including women, children, and trees!

6 - You laugh at Hindu beliefs that deify humans, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got killed, came back to life and then ascended into the sky.

5 - You are willing to spend your life looking for little loopholes in the scientifically established age of Earth (few billion years), but you find nothing wrong with believing dates recorded by Bronze Age tribesmen sitting in their tents and guessing that Earth is a few generations old.

4 - You believe that the entire population of this planet with the exception of those who share your beliefs -- though excluding those in all rival sects - will spend Eternity in an infinite Hell of Suffering. And yet consider your religion the most "tolerant" and "loving."

3 - While modern science, history, geology, biology, and physics have failed to convince you otherwise, some idiot rolling around on the floor speaking in "tongues" may be all the evidence you need to "prove" Christianity.

2 - You define 0.01% as a "high success rate" when it comes to answered prayers. You consider that to be evidence that prayer works. And you think that the remaining 99.99% FAILURE was simply the will of God.

1 - You actually know a lot less than many atheists and agnostics do about the Bible, Christianity, and church history - but still call yourself a Christian.

The way we were....or my past comes back

I think about my past a lot. I don't know why. I don't think Id want to go back into my past & I don't really want to change much of anything. If my past changed, it would change who I am now. Although I cant help but wondering how things would be different if I had done this....or not done that. Well, you get the picture.
IF I could change 'em...
1) I would have stood up to that stupid Janie when I was a little kid
2) Id have told my mom about the school spanking I got
3) Id have had my parents stay together-this is a double sided one. I like my mom as the free thinker she is & she was kind of a meek mouse when she was with Dad. On the other hand, maybe her life wouldn't have been so hard, & still be hard.
Actually, this one has the potential to change more things than anything else, so don't know...
4) Id have told my mom about the creep next door & the guy down the street.....:(
5) Id have slapped the shit out of Maureen Brauner & Shannon Willsey when the opportunity presented itself. Is it sad that this still bugs me? lol
6) Id have done better in school, stayed more focused & asked for help when I needed it, gotten Mom involved or been vocal as hell over it.
7) Id have kept in better touch with school friends. A lot of wasted time without some of them in my lives. I'm very happy I have the important ones to me back in my life (Joyce, Lanette, Bev,Cheri, you know who you are).
8) I would have joined the military. Seriously. I had serious thoughts of doing this & I really Wish I would have. many opportunities would have opened up for me if I would have.
9) Wish I would have wised up in 2000, when I was pregnant with Abigail. This really doesn't need further saying, but I would have still had my girls, but not the emotional trauma I went thru, that I NEVER got an apology for.
10) I wish Id have handled my divorce differently. Nuff said there....
11) I wish Id have jumped on the job that Janet offered me. 35K a year would go a long way for me.
I always thought Id be further along in my life than I am now. Makes me a little sad to see I really don't have much to show. I have my girls though, & they mean the world to me, for those 2 reasons alone, I wouldn't change things.

Where ah been....

Oh my it has been an interesting week. I've started walking. Going again today, I really look forward to it & enjoy going. I look forward to getting to where I can jog the 3 miles instead of walking it. The path I take goes up behind my old HS. Its weird. I can recall all the fun we had, all the trouble we got into. I remember skipping class & hanging at Jesse's. 13 people in a red closet anyone?

Also remember walking from the school to Bev's house. Wow, amazing the energy we had as kids. Id love to just go walking thru the school again. I went in when my niece was going there, it was weird. So much had changed, but a lot was still the same. Id just love to walk from class to class like I did before. rushing to & fro, taking steps 4 or 5 at a time, sliding to a halt just as the bell rang.I remember eating ketchupy fries at the smoke hole, or skipping lunch altogether to just talk with friends. The good ol days................lol

Anyhoo, I look forward to working myself back into shape, gonna walk every day that I can, then get back to the gym as well, start hitting the elliptical's, & some of the weight machines as well. I think if I do the weights, Ill build up the muscle mass to keep skin from looking all ick. I've been doing a lot of research on that, I think its possible to lose the weight w/out the nasty flappy skin. It involves replacing fat mass with muscle mass. Skin is very thin anyway, so realistically, when someone has 6 or 7" of 'skin on their abdomen, its not all skin. There's fat there too. Skin is a living growing organ & in most younger people, it should be accommodating the body it covers. So we will see. That's my belief anyway.

Yeah yeah yeah I know.

I've been a bad girl. Been a busy bad girl.

Kids been sick, I've been sick. Trying to get my house in order, spring cleaning is in full swing @ my house too. I'm in a raging full purge mode. Tossing stuff left & right. How can a household accumulate so much crap?

This Sunday Medicine Clan is doing Ostara. I can't wait. I got a lot out of our last gathering, nice to be with community again.

This coming Friday is Mom's 61st Bday. I want to surprise her , so I intend to get home early & get dinner made, plus pick up a cheesecake @ SAMS. Theirs are uber-awesome. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm (drool).Tomorrow the girls are coming up to work after school to stuff Easter eggs for our office monthly charity & also to help Kendall out w/ her BACA project for Laura Dester shelter. It will be a good thing for the girls to do plus earns Kayla a few hours for her yearly community service she does @ school. This weekend is more cleaning, organizing. I'm tackling the back yard & shed. yuck.

Then NEXT Friday is Ostara @ Chandler w/ Gloria. Cant wait for that one, I'm also gonna give Lee a ride to that.

Then Sat is the moon @ Owen park, I'm supposed to be leading that, not sure if I'm doing it or not as I haven't gotten much feedback from Marc. Hell, I haven't heard from him for a month now. Need to get that site moved as well. Bleh. At some point, I want to make it down to the river too, also get to the gym at least 2x this coming week.

Just been soooooooooooooooo busy.
Diets going good, Down 2 more pounds, sinned a little today, but back on the wagon tomorrow. I feel much better when I eat well. Body just feels cleaner.
We're looking for a new couch too. The one we have was nice at one time. It is a large sectional, tan in color, microfiber, 2 incliner's, fold out bed & all. Mom paid about 1500. for it.Nice....at one time. When I moved out of my home, during my divorce, the ex moved in w/ his girlfriend & moved his trashy brother in the house. Well, when i saw the couch again(when they were gonna throw it to the curb), it looked like it had been rubbed din the dirt. it was filthy, almost black in spots, had cat scratches & some cigarette burns on it. Disgusting. I went ahead & took it, scrubbed & scrubbed it. Found out some of the springs for the bed were gone, the pieces that attached it together were gone, & some places were rubbed the fabric off, the cushion zipper was busted on 2 cushions, & other stuff. i was so pissed. they lived there about 5 months before the house was foreclosed on-since he didn't make the payments like he said he was going to......Oh well.
We looked at several today, we think we found one we like, going back tomorrow to close the deal. :)

^&R%^&$^(*& ice king

I am freezing my ass off, I swear. its pouring rain, going to be down to 33 by morning & whats he doing?
Running the fucking AC. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I hate that thing. i wish it would burn up. LOL
How can a normal human being enjoy the damn cold?
its just not.....RIGHT.